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2010-06-22T18:38:00.016+08:00

2010-05-06T20:33:00.025+08:00

Random shots.. cool shots anyways.... (: love my bbygirls (: ive not upload all yet. tibe2 comp JAM lyke whatever gytu. grrrr.

yesterday. out to town with bbyg fareena...

JOB HUNTING ! (:

Birkenstock.Monsoon.Chocalate fact? asics..... ahaa..

4 job she apply. hopefully one will give a call soon !!! yes soon !! Wish all the best to my besties.. ish ish ..

2010-05-02T22:35:00.024+08:00

my saturday with Family,Cousins and Friends was fucking awesome !!!! (: ntg much to say. bored . hahahah !

From punggol to bukit batok, west coast park, ayer rajah food court,ECP,raffles place,clark quay & home sweet home !! (:

2010-04-25T17:57:00.004+08:00

Current Mood : Happy & Confuse

Current Song : So cold by Chris Brown

Happy, why ....?

Finally we create a new album called Chikaros (;

ahaa. lovely bestfriend of myne.

Fareena Prince (:

Confuse, Why ...?

Hearts live by being wounded .Moving on is simple, itx what you leave behind that makes it so difficult. isnt it true jalil ? the pain, the hurt you had so far with yr ex and such.. geees...pity fr you indeed. and you make mie confuse and sad over such things happen to you ... if i know this happend just recently, i shud have ignore you for good life. trust mie... i hate makin ppl sad over things tt is way soo nonsensesicals.yknow what,I dont miss you, I miss who I thought you was.Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made me cry silently without hym knowing, Forget the times he spoke my name, Remember now im not the same. Forget the times he cheers me up, Forget the sweet things if i can, Forget the times & Dont pretend, Remember now hes just my friend.Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.If i Really Love some one and hate to get hurt...i better Set It Free. ): but........ )):

2010-04-24T14:34:00.002+08:00

Current Song : Quicksand Britney Spears Ft lady gaga

Current Mood : pissed off and sad

Even though your world may appear to have collapsed around you, strangely enough, you also notice that most things still remain the same. youre the type of guy tt hard to mention in a sense of which is good or bad .. the decision of yours and the way you treat is way so unfair ...

But why do you suddenly feel so out of place? You feel totally out of sorts. For the moment, it may even feel like tt youre nvr goin to emerge from your sadness. You myte feel that lyfe is over and theres no meaning left for you. well, itx okeh tho. i had enough . and idk how many tymes i said *i had enough* and i hope you ppl get it the meaning of getting in love or not getting in love and being a single lady for a yr plus ... Itx a matter of time.Though the love is lost, but your love will carry on with your ex and please remember that you do have the capacity for greater love. It's never too late, you still have chances in your life. ull get up once again. ull laugh again. ull live again. And ull love again...trust mie, even just knowing you fr a day plus, im still here to help. cause i guess these is my lifetime job. but i just dunt get it, whye must it be unfair to mie and fair to the others . haish ....... ): Sadness flies away on the wings of time. i just hate living a life like these all the tyme ...

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2010-04-24T14:20:00.028+08:00

saturday night out . . . 170410

awesome night...

2010-04-24T14:09:00.006+08:00

THE BOYS ! RXZ FRIDAY NIGHT OUT ..

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LAZY TO UPDATE ..

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2010-03-27T03:33:00.012+08:00

home . Dover . marina bay mrt . pupu . otang . mai . busstop . shuttle bus . marina barrage . smoke . cam whore . fountain . camwhore . sit . sick . headache . keep quiet . fatihah . hugs . shop . junk food . drinks . potato chips . drinks . fareena . ifah . hany . elevator . nice spot . hot . sit . bubbles . eat . camwhore . quiet again . headache . eat . camwhore . sit . toilet . smoke . kite flying taq menjady . sit . bored . sleepy . sick again . idk which to follow . end up . split with friends . chill at cck . met this rapper . awhile . chill . home sweet home .. thats all.

and lastly . ANUGERAH SKRING WAS AWESOME. I MET ALOT OF FRIENDS . NEW AND OLD FRIENDS TOO (: haaa . exchange more thn 10 num lyke ohh wow ! ahahaha . anyways, all the best to mie and for those yang dpt masok kay ! hahah . da kay . i malas nak write panjang2 . nigghts!!! YAWNNNNNNNNNNNNN*

2010-03-22T03:04:00.003+08:00

Current Song : Rimas - The Fab* Cats

Current Mood : Happy ? Down ?

Why am I afraid to lose you when ure not even mine...Why ?It hurts to see the one i love happy with someone else. Really hurt much . all i can do is to keep quiet till the day tt will and surely wen wrong . my Besties will know this.... kept the grudges much in mie. ohh whye hurt ? basically.........long story yall aint a need to know....we've been seeing each other almost everyday ... have fun together .. stay together . stay close.. such and such ... but in the end. caught red handed ... he doesnt know still .. i wanna let hym know about it. but im scared.. cause we're just Friends still... but the inner feeling i had was so HUGE .... so does he but a lil .. missing each other,kiss calls . will always be the last text of the day wen we're going to sleep and the morning real kiss i gave you after you sent mie home just now. when i said *good bye,take care* i just turn around and walk, he stopped mie and said*taqde kiss*...i gave hym one...without saying anything , i just walked off. it was not sincere one indeed, but i have to make faces by thn . im sorry . tt wasnt real enough.If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much. but how should i start this.i really have to keep this.It really hurts when i expected so much morefrom the person i once loved so much. tt is why im keeping it to myself all this while.. cause im scared to FALL IN LOVE like the previous post i update. bbg said he look like a gdboy boy ... yes indeed he was, just from the outside.. what about the inside ? tt , hard to believe...It's lyke my mind knows whats ryte but my heart is being retarded and still cares. arrrgh ! & lastly . yes i can trust hym, cause. everyday he work. 10am to 8pm ... reached home, sleep. and at around 12am-2am he will go online chat with mie or most prolly meet mie up.. but what about the msges ? Facebook ?too much thinking and i know i shouldnt have too ! uhh pfffft !. and im so sorry for texting you one word one word ... all i can say is nothing wrong and im alryte .... and there he goes... keeping quiet ):

2010-03-22T01:05:00.023+08:00

more photos to come . be patience ppl ! fucking lack and itx like 200 plus . soon to upload all in facebook ... SOON . and IF i have the tyme . sorry ! -_-
my 3 days 2 nights chalet with my lovely guys was FUNKY AWESOME ! sape taq pegy rugi.. .... hahah .. asked my bbg fareena along to these HOUSE SUPERSTAR & FASHION PARTY. (limited ppl and party ppl invited)but in the end , all doesnt dress up tt much. haha . weird. itx okeh. as long we're having FUN ! 3 days straight drinking like org gyla... haha . DOUBLE YAYNESS AND FUN ! (: this is what we call private party in the CHALET yaw ! (: OVERALL I RATED IT SUPERB ! TRIPLE THE AWESOME !. HAHA .

2010-03-09T16:38:00.004+08:00

Current Song : Bad Boys - Alexandra Burke

Current Mood : Extra Happy (:

1st-Cause FB wall pic ku dpt Dlete.(selame ny aku taq tawu pakai FB) haha . okeh diam..

2nd - chat with Fareena. Asraf. Anoh. Amir.Taufik and Otang make mie laugh away . (SOME) Iswat very the notty! nnty dier... ku munch munch aru tawu ! notty boy ! and to otang. be strong. i know you can.. im always here if you need help..talkk things out kay. rmbr my advice.. rindu kau !

3rd - Starbucks . Carls & Jr . Swensens Ice Cream . MC Cafe . Famous Amos da ku serbu Semlm . haha .. total spent $40 plus per day . mangkok ! an im craving for chilli beef cheese fries again!

4th - lepak with wawa, adik nya dan juga abang sedara nya... haha ! and not forgetting radin and his bikers friend after my 2 frends went home.. radin sai* whye you nmpk cengkung muker,kurus nmpk skg, uh gare2 masok hospital taq makan kan* .. haha. dora happy sgt ader org ckp da kurus.. alaa skit jek.! HAHA kembang aku haha .. radn very the small and i love seeing hym kene beaten. ahha !..

cute you !...

Lastly - i lost 3kg in 2 days after discharge .. and today, recently i check i lost another 2 kg .. fucking weird (still no appetite to eat) but for yesterday, happily eating non stop thn today, nak makan punyer luh susah.. nak rase muntah aje.. but still happy with my life now.. taq makan, taq pasal. ku kebuluh pun taq pasal.... hahaha ... DORA TAQNAQ MAKAN !!! nak kurus. im fat giler babi punyer luh okeh !!!!!!! .... 5 kg lost in less thn 2weeks .. too mie itx fucking miracle sebab aku slalu makan slalu naek. taq pernah trun. nyahahahah !.. prangai budak gems ( tts what my bbg always say ) hah ..

SORRY FOR THE VERY THE RANDOM POST ! (:

2010-03-08T03:09:00.004+08:00

Current Song : Forever Young

Current Mood : Abit Happy luhhhhh ...

I'm old enough to know better, but too young too care. Happiness starting . gain everything back again ... but theres changes in mie. you can see it very clearly... VERY CLEAR ! the bechoookksss to well behave quiet girl. at tymes i do make a fuck up laughter cause of my friends. im always there to make them happy. but at tymes, kept still sorry for the WORST changes ever .... but i try my best to be the old dora. it will be very hard to change it back .. really.. all take tymes.. so yea.... happy to meet my best bestest besties bestttttzzzz girl friend just now. fareena..a week plus not met her up ): saddens mie much ... beach road and shisha kills my boredemsss !

Choice - not chance - determines my destiny.For every endin there is always a new beginnin.It's hard to keep waiting for something i know will never happen, but it's even harder to give it all up knowing it's everything i want. meeting my gf might having so called *away from stress* but at tymes, gf shares problems. tt scares mie much as those problems relate same as mine... how should i give advice thn ? when im in their shoes too.... how ? ohh geees.... migrain starts. the boy tt always kept mie remembered.. haish..... kept still. make myself pissed off is the answer....If i want to improve, be content to be thought foolish and stupid.Only those who dare to fail greatly can achieve greatly.Time goes by so fast. People go in and out of myy lyfe. i must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to me. and im still a young girl still..... no hopes nor high chances for guys.. all take tyme to heal.. i might want to love em, but think twice dora.. hurt will always coming tru in our life... im still young. yes indeed... enjoy is the answer to move on.... mum said,dunt ever give up. alot of chances not use-en up... be proud and ready for it.... im always and trying my best to be strong nomatter how hurt i get hurt from someone.. i dunt regret neither do hatred... all fate... be appreciative of what had happen... Within crisis, are the seeds of opportunity.Lyfe is too short if i don look arnd once in a while i might miss it.The fear about losin a loved one is the fear of change itself. Being used to one person, day after day, then to one day wake up all alone, a whole new day. Think of it as a chance to start over ... to learn from the past and make a brand new beginning.. and being strong all the tyme is the right choice... move on with happy life then (: .... TRYING MY BEST NOW....... but still missing hym badly now...

2010-03-06T09:50:00.002+08:00

Current Song : Carry Out - Justin Timberlake

Current Mood : Down . Sleepy

yesterday, went out with wawa to release some stress for just awhile. as usual. fake smile were all use-en..i tried my best, to be the old dora, i tried my best to be the one tt they always wished for... so yea...wawa waited for mie under my blok. i sengaje tinggal kan my handphone at home. cause if i bring also, no one will msg . so what for bringing em when im out only awhile.. we were about to go town. but eventually not cause mum said so... i have an appointment with my aunty duing these spiritual thingey at her house by 9pm. yes my sickness due to all these. and it all happen over at ECP chalet last week, when i walked outside alone to fynd a shop. mesty luh brany.....ive been followed by these ROCKER BITCH and some of the JEMBALANGZ!. i was shocked too when i stepped inside my aunt house. sat down and she said *mase tu ader pergi tepi pantai jalan sorang2 kan?* ... i looked at wawa and wawa looked at mie back.. i smile with my weird face expression. OMG. she know whatever things i did and who im with.. what she said was all true. yes, i was in the room with frends while frends making noise and im there sat down quietly. CHECKED ! TTS CORRECT . i wore all black...CHECKED ! TTS CORRECT TOO ! so here the story goes... she took out some rocks ? idk..she touched my head. touched my toes. i was hot by then really. migrain starts. shivering . she said not to worry... those thing just want to accompany and making friend. LIKE HELLO ! do i look like one of them ? HELL NO. no joke okeh. itx a serius matter. you may laugh at it. laugh luh kalau korang nak.. bende ny pergy hantui korang padan muker jgn salah kan aku. cause this thang jaga mie for quite sometyme already...aunty said. every tragedy.every bad things gonna happens these thing will help ... i dunt wish to see this right infront of my eyes. but aunty said. try kau imagine hantu2 yang kau pernah lihat kat tv semua... hmm. nononono !i bet no one will trust this story much.. saddens mie much .. really. i felt fucking diff after discharge from hospital.. arghhh ..! and you boy ! itx all cause of you okeh ! hypertension much ... been thinking of it much cause of you ! yes you boy ! haish.. i may believe that im responsible for what i do, but not for what i think. The truth is that im responsible for what i think, because it is only at this level that i can exercise choice. What i do comes from what i think. Since im alone are responsible for my thoughts, only i can change them. i will want to change them when i realize that each thought creates according to its own nature. ill always Remember tt the law works at all tymes and that im always demonstrating according to the kind of thoughts i habitually entertain. Therefore, i should start now to think only those thoughts that will bring me health and happiness. cause these thing tt have been following mie knew tt i aint having companion... please luh. leave mie alone okeh.. i dunt mynd being alone. just tt. ... argh. nvm..... up to you to believe or not....

2010-03-04T21:15:00.003+08:00

Current Song : Change me - akon ft keri hilson

Current Mood : Very hot ! Thirsty ! aku taq selesa luhh !!!!! Bingit !

OMG ! I CANT STAND WITH NOWADAYS HEAT . idk .... isit because im sick ? my body temp not right ? or maybe the weather ? ohh hell ...... i cant sleep well this days . slept early . but end up, woke up at around 1am ... sleep again, and yes, wake up again at around 5am .. haish.. and will be awake till evening ): damn ! eating medicine too won't help ... fuck shit yea ...

okeh enough of this.. so i shall open another topic.. soooo... here it goes ....

................in the end, karma will be a bigger BITCH than ill ever need to be ...pain is inebitable. suffering is optional...ish ! expect nothing ... but i do appreciate everything ...hey hey, yknow what, if i were a computer, i'd shut down and reboot my life back .. but everything just happen to quickly... yea,,, i may accept it well enough..I Hate To See Yall Frown, i hate to you sad... so itx best enough for mie putting up my fake smile & lame jokes just to see you laughing away. a guy, Named S_____ have help mie alot...yes alot...i appreciate it so much for the good advice .. he cheer mie up at tymes too ... you see... i tried my best not to reply other guys msg ... really . SWEAR ! i was about to dlte evry guys msg tht have sent to mie. but eventually, i just ignored em.. cause i knew, and not long enough to text thm and takan aku nak fake around and pretend tt im okeh to ppl. diam diam sudah luh.. betol taq !??... so itx best for mie to keep quiet, and just to msg this S____ .. and his a good friend indeed. just a good friend okeh ... .... gees. i cant face guys for now... fucking pissed off.... try mie. i wont entertain ....trust mie , it would be a fucking big waste tyme for you to do tt .. soon you KENA REJECT .... sorry if im being to SOMBONG here ... but this is my own life. happen once.. happen twice.. it wunt happen for the third tyme cause i had enough of it...If you want a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things. these, i know, i will be depending on myself not to anyone.. cause having a good friend too wunt help and they just dunt even care... and i hate being traumatise and phobia..so i shall kept myself quiet till im satisfied ....

and lastly...

im happy tt yesterday 12am strike i did text hym up..

who's birthday ??? ???

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY RAIHAN (:

I hope all your birthday dreams and wishes come true.May today be filled with sunshine and smiles, laughter and love. Lot's of people are thinking of you on your birthday; I just wanted to let you know I'm one of them. Have a wonderful day! Take care Raihan (:

2010-03-04T01:04:00.004+08:00

Current Song : Dont stop believin - Glee

Current Mood : Lost . pain still .

Early in the morning sun rise with many hopes But it's set hopelessly. It signals that you are not fooling well. geees. morning bath over at hospital wasnt great enough. staying there making mie sick but minus this nurse .. a guy . okeh so not suit calling HIM , NURSE ! haha. weird...well, cant sleep throughout the night away ... coughing here and there. check blood pressure.. urine test , putting and changing drips. ficking hand and vains hurts alot... omg ! whatever shit.. geees. they woke mie up fucking early 5am just to take all tt . thn asked to sleep again.. aiyyaa stress okeh.. food there was nice.. haha ..balloons hanging on my bed make mie smile as more ppl came by to visit (: . flowers fruit were nice wrapped.. money too was given... thankx alot for visiting mie... now im home.. still aunt visit mie. a few of my frends too .. some couldnt make it ... i was so dissapointed .. the close one indeed ): nvm.. aku sakit sape mau heran pee. btol taq ? WHATEVER .....

now, happy to be home... in 2 weeks tyme coming down again for scanning my brain ... blood test again .. aiyaa. see luh. now idk what to update . blank -_-.

my head to heavy now.

i need a rest .... bad pain . diffcult to cure .... sabar saje luh....

2010-03-01T00:43:00.004+08:00

Current Mood : Scary . sad . Helpless . Sick .

Playing Nintendo doesnt work my strength):

Current song : Semua Tentang Kita -Peterpan

i ddnt knew the pain in my head getting more and more helpless.. i ddnt knew the pain was getting worse to worst ! ): i knew these would happen in no tyme . i attended 3 chalets yesterday . 2 of my aunts and lastly friends.... i was tonning my nights away ovr at bbg fareena chalet. celebratin her dad's bday . it was a luck to came over if not i wouldnt attend.. i know and always will make tyme fr my bestfriend occassion nomatter how hurt and pain i have ryte now.. i kept still. i kept myself quiet . i used fake happiness for em. i make myself happy. eventually, seeing his face too makes mie more happier but minus the way he reacts towards mie really cant accept it. i thut tings wud be better if we talk as usual.. friends wud also be safe and sound... but not at all. not a single word from hym. it was just a tiger beer passed to hym and tts all. haish... i cabbed home.. reached early in the morn. which is just now... i bed-ed in . tried to sleep. but i couldnt. kept twisting all abt.. it was 10 am showned at my watched. whye cant i just sleep. fareena call mie up said tt she's still over at the chalet. i hold on to my tears. thut of letting her know. itx okeh. let her enjoy with khai and an... im happy. tears roll down when i said" bie, kirim salam an okeh" she said OK....i put down the phone. . tried to sleep again. haish. tyme passed by so fast as i look at the watch again, 2pm. these when it happen...i vomit everything out. i texted my other childhood bestfriend.. wawa. i texted her to call my mom, as i text my mum shes not replying yet. i knew shes on the road. too helpless to dial my mum num. mum called minutes later, worried sounded....i cried. i couldnt stand the pain much . mum hurried home. dad too ... she opened my room door. i was shivering and crying, helplessly on bed not moving about, i kept so fucking still. all i can do was give a hard punched on my head thn cry . dad was rubbing my head. while mum took zam-zam water (holy) she asked mie to drink so i took a sip. straight away, went to clinic. while walking i fainted.. these, i knw , i cant help myself. clinic enough ? nahhh.... blur vision start...weak hands..weak legs. not able to stand in proper. these i know, i couldnt help much and fight the sickeness back. i cry and cry ... they take mie home. waited for 4 hours as the doc say, still not fynd. to hospital they say.... while on my way. dad nags...A lot of people in my life are getting sick due to hot weather or potentially going to get sick from tobacco. tu lah kau, isap rokok bnyk sangat... do you drink yesterday ? he asked mie these... i told hym, enjoy , mmg i have limits, but ayah, dina taq minom pun semalam. thut of it, but taq pun, taq manis depan parents yang ramai kans...my head really berat luh ayah, please dunt talk about this... mummy say, i assume tt you are stress now about the incident ryte ? i laid my head over at mum shoulder... i cried... haish. itx been 5 hours plus now, still waiting for results. sitting inside these useless room mke mie feel so uneasy, moreoevr periods ! haish.. i tynk these or *its* thing following mie or what ? haish.....I'm sick to bloody death of bastards too ...Any time I got in emotional turmoil, I felt sick all the time, like at any minute I would die. Migrain, heavy migrains plus depressions sickness...and fuck hell no, NO to food and drink for 24 hours ): ... im starving now ):

28 Feb 2010 . . . .

2010-02-27T01:16:00.003+08:00

Current Mood : Moody . Sad . Tension

Current Song : live like we're dying by Kris allen

FR : Bie, kat ane

DI: Whye?

FR : Just asking.haiz.

DI : ouhkays

FI : So where you ?

DI : At Home . you ?

FI : Bwh blok,alone.cant think straight . shit. you have no idea how bad i miss tt boy.he not replying or returning calls. not even my sister's. not even yours..shit. i tak boleh tido tau.an dgn you ok taq ?

DI : Bie, listen k. i may not be there to help but look, ive been guink alot lyke you do too. i wish i cud see thru your eyesso i wud knowwat you lyke to see. being helpless wunt help. justbcause sumthing good ends,doesnt mean sumting better wuntbegin...if you want love,then faithfully,practice living d principlesof love tt both of you have. work on yrself and noone esle. bie talking about an. eversince thn he nvr msg me nor calls. i pun same. both of us tk text langsungand im here missing hym badly. i cant sleep these past days too till now. i fucking woke up early inda morn teringat dier. how ?haish. i cant help myself just to keep myself quiet and stay home. ahish. i know he dunt even care.just look at tagged.he sent comment saying imy to anothere gerl after the day we fought. tt tyme. im very the hurtso much ):

FI : Haiz. i gt nothing else to say. these boys just dunt understnd us.

read our convo much ? these is how we felt for each other... the single ladies tt have been single more than a year plus, and trying so hard to fall in love. but in the end. we fail again. but look at us. we both of us supporting each other. soon and i hope everything gonna be ouhkay. i dunt mynd im the one who lost everything in love and fail but not to my bestfriend. i cant see tt happen to her.. i cant help myself seeing her down. i rather loose everything, but not a bestfreiend like her ): haish. yes. deep inside mie, i was very sad, angry,mad,haywire.idk what now. really hurt .... now i care for her most. Hard times are simply that---TIME---time passes and things do get better. So, just stick through it and one day you will look back on it and think 'Man, that was nothing worth.. look. dunt ever give even you said it doesnt worth. some parts are worthwhile. just so you think deeply.Everyday begins and ends with a thought, this I know... Everyone of your days begins and ends with a thought of me, this I hope......You must have hope in your heart before you can love.

2010-02-25T20:34:00.006+08:00

Current Mood : Bored . Break Down

Current Song : Playing with fire

Ha hahaha Ha hahaha Oohhwoooeee Eeeeeyeeaaahhh Na naniiiii

I don't slip or trip when she ask me where I've been (where you been) One big smile on my face ddarling it's just you and Me (you and me)

Now I'm on some Alfie behaviour I'll call you back later To many fish in the sea for me But when the lights come on and what's her Name is gone I realise where I'm supposed to beee

[Hook:]

I tried to believe every word of your sweet story But intuition keeps telling me Your making a fool outta meeee

[Chorus:]

Thoughts running wild through the night as I watch You sleep (she's getting closer) I can't help but check his text while he's passed out Next to me (it's only a matter of time) I'm on some CSI behaviour Who's gonna save ya You'll be the fool when the truth comes outttttt But when those lights come on and what's her face Is gone we're straight back to the same routine

[Hook:]

I tried to believe every word of your sweet story But intuition keeps telling me Your making a fool outta meeee

[Chorus:]

Cause I'm such a good liar Just admit it I never did it Yes you did No I didn't (ayy) I'm playing with fire Just admit it I never did it I know you did it No I didn't (yes you did) Cause I'm such a good liar Wwwoooooeeee I can't help myself I keep playing with fire Wwwoooooeeee Ha hahaha Such a good liar living life in discuise Can't keep up with these lies She do anything to try and catch me out But I never leave no signs In my heart we were ment to be Guys like me we be like 2 or 3 trust I can't help myself I love girls (what) I get a kick out of play with fire I get a kick out of play with fire Playing with fire Playing with fire She Ain't going no where you know why? [Chorus:]

Cause I'm such a good liar Just admit it I never did it Yes you did it No I didn't (ayy) I'm playing with fire Just admit it I never did it I know you did it No I didn't (yes you did) Cause I'm such a good liar Just admit it I never did it Yes you did it No I didn't (ooooo) I'm playing with fire Just admit it I never did it I know you did it No I didn't (yes you did) Wwwoooooeeee cause i'm such a good liar Wwwoooooeeee I can't help myself I keep playing with fire Wwwoooooeeee Ha hahaha Such a good liar Ha hahaha (nanana) Ha hahaha Ha hahaha Ha hahaha

Over and over again... replay and replay over and over again. rewind and rewind over and over again and again.... nice song for you and for me....too many fish in the sea for me (: . youre just playing with the fire boyyy.... such a good liar . you said you wnna text my bbg back to settle everything. where was it ? you left me hanging ..... look tt ive been in the CSI mood behaviour... but still i wsnt there to knmow more further. i aint wanna know the truth because all the things you wasnt wht it supposed to meant... and i know ure not the one. but how could you treating mie lyke this wen i still trust you nomatter how bad your friends said.... haish... look tt you dunt appreciate it much. you makin fun of it. our promise are still kept by me.... i aint wann say it here. you should know boy........It is better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one. my mynd said his the wrong guy on the other hand, my heart say his good enough to change to be better (: nomatter how bad you hate mie. just so yknow , as long as im hurt but still i nvr thut of you as a bad person nor hate you forever.. i really dislike it much ....Everybody makes mistakes. I also make them. But the biggest mistake I ever made was falling for you. haish... treating mie unfairly wasnt i expecting off..... im just being me to be honest to everyone at most.

ISH . SENANG2 GO WATCH RADIT & JANI OKEH.

ive been watching it since last tyme till now... thin and thick they strive for it...

2010-02-25T08:28:00.002+08:00

Current Mood : Fucking Fresh . Kinda not in good mood due to morning bad dreams.

Current Song : Baby - Justin Bieber Ft ludacris

If some things are better left unsaid, then mayb they too are better left undone.Love can only be what you want it to be. im not trying to force myself by thn. it really a worse to worst ever thing to do or to open my heart to anyone. it was fucking difficult to love someone. but eventually not for now..letting yknow this, i dunt mynd getting hurt, rather thn suffered the pain....his with d ego, tt really hard to talk things out really gave mie a big hard fucking tyme okeh ! The more we fight waiting, the more waitin we will have to fight. lyke i told you, i cant suffer the pain but hurt all day long.Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. I've learned tt lyfe is like hour glass sand. Sooner or later, everythin hits rock bottom, but all i have to do is b patient and wait fr sometin to turn everythin bck arnd. but seriusly, gonna take a looooong fucking tyme ... really ... Changes are always there in mylives, the wise ones accept change and live with it. i do see the wise just to move on. love give total painess and hurtness while fun give total happiness in me. yup, because i knew i cant live without having fun all the tyme. i cant be controlled, i cant be angry all the tyme wen we;re in love. no ... i wunt this tyme now.being a yr plus single was totally a great thing. BUT MINUS THE DATE IVE BEEN DATING WITH. hahaha . I TOLD YOU, A YEAR PLUS SINGLE WAS SOOOO INCREDIBLE and nvr in my lyfe lyke this..just so yknow,Ive learned tt tings change, pple change, and it doesnt mean i forgt the past or try to cover it up it simply means tt ive move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesnt mean giving up, it means accepting that some things werent meant to be. like what im doing now. accept the fate of it (: yes, nommater how bad i suffered now, still the pain was surround mie. it was all fate (: . .The hardest part about moving forward is not looking back ! oh please dora. don't you ever think about the past ... ive always been thingking about this lately. idk whye. fucking hell ): nvm .... all FATE ! Advice is only asked to be given when iknow the true answer i juz dont want to believe it.I thought by staying, trying to change you would be worth it baby, but now I see that trying to change you, only changed me! so what for i stay wen im the one who suffered... a waste of tyme cause a guy lyke you is fucking hard to listen and lways with his EGO ! Everything in life is temporary. even wen you die together. they dunt get in the samee grave nor tortured together...If you wanna live, make everything happen, but if you wanna play, just dream about it boy. I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day i look into their eyes and listen to em talk and realize tht they are gone. All i see in front of me is a stranger with just a known name.Ever wonder how your life would be right now if you had the power to go back and change even just one small thing? geeessss...Explore, dream, discover with em before getting in love deeply... learn from thm, know their secrets, know their everything in anyways they do....

Tomorrow isn't a promise, it's a chance .... yes or no ??

2010-02-22T15:22:00.004+08:00

Current Mood : Twisted Mind . Confused .

Current Song : Naturally -Selena Gomez .

i had already text my bestfriend . azizul is his name . his my closest friend in my dance crew . he knew about mie more than everything even not a word saying hello to hym when meet up, he knew something not right. yup he came up to mie, said * are you alright,come share with me whats wrong. yknow ill be there whenevr you need help,ill always be your listening ear,cmon,so supp with it * . i was speecless, i cried and not saying aword at all. i was too hurt deeply inside. i whisper to myself, azizul ears came near to my mouth ... as i kept whispering * How is he doing there,is he find,i just need him by myside when im down *. azizul pulled mie up. putting his both palm on my shoulders . pulling mie up to look at his face....my eyes kept wonder around . and his there forcing mie to look at his eyes... i looked, a secs later my eyes wonder around... he said this

A: Love looks not with the eyes, but with the heart and soul! IM YOUR BESTFRIEND! I love whatever things youdo but please trust my heart and soul tt is why i want you to look deeply intoo my eyes. im 23 years old dora. im old. whye im still single till you step inside our new dance crew till now... why. cause of heart pain & i believe in bestfriend much thn having R/S with someone... dora listen..no matter what be strong to face everything. im still a dancer, you may see mie happily dance but deep bottom of my heart. i no longer could break it.. i dunt mind breaking my arms or leg. but please not my heart. dora...when youre down, im down too. wee're in same mood and life... im like you too. when im sad, i tend to make faces and being alone.guys noadays are hard to understand.. as surrounding changes day by day...

D: *sniff sniff* Hugs*Azizul,You hold my souls serenity in the palm of your hand, so treat it with care and gentleness plz. im scared. i just need everyting to secured in my heart. thankx fr the advive youve gave mie bestfriend..hug more tightly*If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take hym to my soul and show hym all the love there is. how truely i am for now.

A:While bein in love there are two requirements, heart breaking and healing. Healing takes time gerl...i know it will hurt you much

D:I can't seem to erase all the memories of hym. No matter how hard I try its someting I cant do. i badly in need and in love with hym. nvm bestfriend. im still strong to face this. just let mie breakdown alot of tyme as long as im finding a ways to be alright..

theres more he said to mie, he really give alot of advice. even the advice would hurt mie much. but still .i would always listen to hym. whye cant my gf be like hym..cry together,having hard and harsh advice but still meaning.. at least i can speak up. haish.. im just being tortured.I may not be the dream you want to come true, but Ill always be the person in love with you....):

2010-02-21T20:43:00.003+08:00

Current Mood : Sad . Bored . Pissed off . Random .

Current Song : Wanna be with you -Paula Deanda

Since You havent responded to my tex and havent heard from you since Friday Evening, i assume you are pretty upset with me. im sorry about tt. i was trying very hard to understand you. A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding.. Sometymes it can be as quiet as a feather falling.. And the most painful ting is, no one realy hears it, except me myself who have been heard and hurt... and i know its not just mie who going thru all this. same as the other party tt seems so hard to understand how i felt.It is u at grips wit tt too long hour never dim enough until sleep.You as though you cud be.The same except tht I shall perhaps never meet you . again or im not sure what it will be... i hope not .You pretend not to know I am watching you.Marvelously I am no longer sure you know.You idleness brings tears to my eyes badly.. i cant bare to see mie ,you my bbg and also my mum sad for this. i ddnt mean to let the tears roll out from their eyes. i wsnt sure. i was too sad when i was sitting over at starbucks with mum. drinking and sharing problems. im not like this before . even i had dates before.. but i wasnt badly inlove untill like this. i assume theres something unique and special in you tt really attract mie much.

im goin to smile and make u think Im hapy, Im goin to laugh, so you dont see me cry, Im goin to let you go in style, and even if it kills me ... but still Im goin to smile.

i wonder what it will be faking around? i aint wanna show or have any sympathy too. i know i can settle it with myself. but not till tt other party keep ignoring my msg. at least his there msg mie, im alright with it. but there he goes, ignoring mie lyke... hmm. idk what to say, and really hurt deep inside my crushed heart ):Ive changed so much. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if ur lyfe is different bcause of me. Bcause mines different. ohh geees ! you taught me so much, and from that Ive known. I guess thts what happens. KARMA .... and hated getting traumatised and phobia .. ):I nvr knew until tt moment how bad it could hurt to lose somethin i nvr really had.

mum said this to me: Where there is love, there is pain. strive and be brave to sort things out together so tt you dont loose the chance.

i pretty sure it will be a reality, but why must it be mie who always start the convo first when the other party keep quiet all the tyme ....Love is the hardest habit to break, and the most difficult to satisfy...a year plus being single was really not insecured much... shoudnt open my heart. but still HE makes my days lively.

2010-02-18T14:43:00.003+08:00

Current Mood : Bored . Unhappy .

Current Song : Crawl By Chris Brown

fucking bored . as i woke up at around 130pm, my mum just left , saw her closed the main gate, and wasnt in the mood to catch her up over at the gate just to say im awake. so yea, i took my tyme up here going out from my room door. entered washroom and washed my face and had muruku in my hands to chew... and again, fuck up, WISDOM TOOTH really killing mie much . i really wanted to to dentist today ! really, i dunt mynd with the operation, i dunt mynd with plucking out 3 tooth in A DAY ! and i dunt really mynd having stiches and re-open till the day it says soo. serisuly. it good to pluck it off rather thn having the pain all the tye. seeing my friends eat big burgers, crackers, soft drink really getting into my nerves ): awww, my tooth! im gonna kill you soon . and i couldnt sleep well these past days . fucking aching, fucking dizzy too ): urgh ! nvm . . . so actually, today post was fucking random . sorry for using alot of *fucking* word in it .. and oh yaaa, yesterday .... was jalan2 at Orchard Central. aku saw this tindik very the cantik.. i nak pierce it badly taw. fucking cantik and lawar ... and yea aku taq sabar lagy nyy ... conferm cost around $300 plus just for a tindik..

hehe. and yes,

my bbgerlfriend asked mie to checked for her over the internet whether she get to enter ITE or not . haaa. basically itx a yes, and i wasnt ready to tell her ... so i text her saying tt *go and check over at the letter box. and come over to my house...half hour later, she called mie, shouting

wawa: DEE!!! aku dapat masok * giggle rabak punyer* aku dapat masok...

Dora: Hahaha .. see, i just wanna surprise you, just to look for yourself you enter ke tidak.see. im happy for you.... kan da agak punyer. this was all a surprise

Wawa: Giggle nonstop* aku dapat masok !!! kene py interview!!.. giggle*

Dora: klah2, come over my house and check it out ok..

Wawa: giggle* okok .. bye ...

aww, how cute my bestfriend nyy .... geees, my prayers really worth for her (:

im glad tt we prayed hard and banyak bersabar (: alhamdulilah. congrats . now waiting for interview. pray hard again okeh (: ... nomatter what, im your bestfriend will always be there for you(: please dont ever give up.. allah akan slalu beri kan kiter banyak chance jika anda bnyak berdoa dan jugak banyak bersabar (: .. amin (: im happy for you luh WAWA KU !!!!!!!

2010-02-16T23:18:00.044+08:00

Photos upload ! yes . at last . been trying so hard to upload.. fucking slow yknow ! alryte happy for now. im Home safely indeed (: and yes.... my 4 days in KL was fucking awesome . indeed. but MINUS MY pain in the ass WISDOM TOOTH !! UHHH ! fucking hell pain all. througout the days spent day, i couldnt eat well due to tooth aching ): itx ok .

so yes, Friday .... Fucking woke up early.. ehh no., i wsnt asleep at all. getting ready and off from home at 3am ! (: yup, to avoid JAMS ! . so yea, reach melaka for breakfast and off again to KL . check in at around 9am . yes . 9am we reached KL . fucking long. back aching ! after settling down.nice one. shared bed with mum. haaa. and at around 12pm. had our lunch neardy our hotel. hour later back to our cars and proceed to Petronas towers. fuck shit . big huge enormous snakes found there. fucking hell. haha. ini kalau dier makan aku. kenyang untuk setahun ! hahaha LOL... kay shsss.. walk around. ddnt took alot of pictures cause was having too much fun walk here and there... and lets proceed. shopping spree... again . and went bak to hotel fucking early cause too tires. seriusly .NOT FORGETTING ! Sat night club @ La Queen for club kids. Blue Boys at bukit bintang is good if you like non-chinese. haha . NOT REALLY FINDING MUCH OF HIGH-END GUYS THERE . theres afew only (:

Sunday, i woke up first at around 5am..why ? haha. cause i ook my tyme berendam di dalam tub . till 6am thn my mum turn to bath-ed. haha . after all done . we head down for breakfast at hotel around 830-9am like tt ? hmm. had yummy big eggs,nice breakfast . but still tooth ache . take tyme to chew): . sobx! thn thn. the part we cant wait most ! GENTING HIGHLAND ! hahah . yea... so very very the gairah yknow ! hahah . EGGXITING GYTU LORH ! hhaha. arrive at the bottom of genting, we off our aircon and slide down our krete tingkap? haha. . SEJUK BANGET . seriusly. double our car aircons! CONS BETOL pffft ! haaa. kecohrable. WAHH YEAH OOO here and there. haha .out from car. WOO. COLDNESS RABAK PUNYER. MOREOVER IM WEARING SHORTS. HAHAHA . coolness men... enterd theme park. play around. nothing much diff/change there.. SPACE SHOT WAS D AWESOME ONE INDEED. its like you jumping from high stories!! i cant even felt the sit wen it came ZOOOM-ED down. fucking. hell. i was shivering ! really. tt was my first tyme. chey. dora brany taw !!! hahah . bluek... bla bla bla.... was at genting from 1030AM till 530PM. ahaaa. back to hotel. put stuffs, and off to these fucking happening place called bukit bintang ! hahahah. fucking hell. and also pavilion. OMG COACH POPPY, LV,CHANEL... those fucking branded real one ok. no fake on really catch my eyeballs much on em. hahah . fucking eyeball make mie stare long .. at last. i gt my self D&G WALLET AND LV BEG . ESCADA & CHANEL 5 PERFUME !!(: haaa. fuck helll men... MY HANDS SO ICTH LUH. TTS WHYE.. haha wLKED TILL 12AM. back to haotel sleep tight people ! and yes. luper ku mau bilang. for the past 2 days, late night fireworks was put up . idk what event but seriusly from our hotel window we can see near and fucking nice ! i was the first who shout *ehh bunga api!!! bangun2 tengok luar tingkap cepat !!!!*wen all my family were asleep. hello msia ppl. taq tawu tido ker ?? they put up tt firewerks at around 12am and 3am. mangkok kan ! haha. but nice one !! back to sleep... heee.

mOnday ... awww. shopping spree.... as usual.... shop shop shop. til i frgt fr my friends items. haa. it was a last min one indeed ! really. sorry .... but still i have small souveniers ... haaaa !and not forgetting. we went for tahi mssg .. haha. i wasnt in teh picture cause i was doing the whole body inside. told you! my body fucking aching due to tooth ache really drive mie nuts.. fucking pain till my back and nec and also tempel ache ! arrghh ):

home sweet home. tuesday and gees. now just reached from sakura. haha. sempat ehh kiter py makan kat sakura , town (: woohoooo.now, im missing my bby gerl fareena... aku da jumpe si wawa tady. yaha. dpt ku lepas kan rindu kat dier (:...now the bishan boys ... fuck.. wait wait. gonna hug tightly ! !hahah

2010-02-12T17:15:00.041+08:00

my weeks with family, cousins and friends was totally a splendid one ! indeed people...! awesome weeks i had with em. fucking hell.... photoshoots, fort canning,pair ris,birdpark, snow city, science centre, exploring, lepak-ing,shopiing,clarke quay,town,vivo,get drunk, get haywire,get into trouble,falling in love was fuckingly great this week. haha. eventho had bad mood past weeks with this STILL A GIRL THINGKING.so not into mie. seriusly. i dunt give a damn even. ohh whatever. all i care for now is, family, cousins and frends. gees. totally awesome. i really spent my days with em correctly. whye correctly ? well, basically, ive done a great timetable . wich was,half of the day wit fam and cousins half of the day with frends... geees.

cant say much.. had so much fun too over at bishan with the boys and my bbgirl fareena... (and FYI, shes my bestfriend)ive known her long thn you ok ! pffft. jgn sal boley ckp(wahh, da pamdai carik kwn baru nmpk) haha. hello. sorry skit ! kayy back to the topik. so yea.. AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME WEEKS !!!! (: and now, in awhile ! soon, in hours time. in minutes time.soon enough. . awhile more.. getiing ready. almost ready. going out in awhile. hahah. okk shuts. stop the crap..... going to KL FOR 5 DAYS ! yea yea aku pey luh taq sabar nak shopping barang2 aku. and not forgetting all my boys and fareena especially !hahah. OMG OMG ! cant wait luh people. and conferm2 cant wait to singgah HARD ROCK CAFE. my parents love to go there late night. ape lagy, aku pun join luh kans. yeeehaaa ! taq sabar luh kan. OMG AGAAIN. ehh taq . HAHA. OK SHUTS. ANYWAYS, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, AND HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO COUPLES OUT THERE. too bad i cant celeb . haha. alot i reject due to my Kl trip. nyahahah.. blueks. and to my fareena. party hard liaoooozzz.. tkmo notty2 taw bby gerl, alaa, nangis je lah bie, taqmo terjun luh. hahah.. ade2 jek tau. kiter sesame nangis kay. i will kal you before reaching checkpoint. so ya, dpt talk2. lepas kan rindu dlm kreta hahah ! da lah taq pernah2 kite taq meet dlm 5 hary tuu. geees. okeh shuts. gtg now. packing up soon.busy for now.hmmmmph!

aku miss

FAREENA, SHARMAINE,WAWA,

KHAI,AL-HAFIZ,RAIHAN,BARATH,SUFIYAN,FARHAN,WAN,IQBAL,AZMAN,PUPU,

FIEZA O,HAKIM,HANNAN,RASUL,SHAH,FAIZAL...

haha . lol. as if im going forever like tt uhs. haha. ish ish ! melampau dora. hahhaahaha !ok shuts.

I MISS SINGAPORE AND MY BANTAL BUSHUK EYOORE AND BARNEY ! HAHAHAH

2010-01-30T17:38:00.012+08:00

Happy Birthday my boboy !da berusia SEPULUH TAHUN pun !! .. comel loteh jek. kecik ny ! . .at last . 2 digit num are up ! heh. ..

May this year be your best ever. kakak hope all your birthday dreams and wishes come true. Heres to another year of experience . moreover with the two digit in his new life (: . haha .

before going out wid family . .

met up rasul , aim and friends over at pioneer at around 3am . yup. haha . morning . lepak till 430 lyke tt. thn home sweet home . woke up at 10am due to ITE interview kinda thang. so yea. get ready and stuff . reached clem, at around 2plus. interview was fun. teachers there were friendly . (: i really gt to interect wit em well. coolness. Hopefully my TWO BBY GERL FAREENA AND WARDAH get what they chose in ite ....

let's proceed to boboy birthday ...

before meeting wid family . wardah and i walked around arab street .sat at coffee shop . read news paper. talk crap and stuff. soon after . mum called us to come over bugis . pastamania . we had meals . alot of ala carte meals. OMG . i just love tt HAM & MUSHROOM pizza much and nachos too . ummm, yum yum. and i ordered two side meals two . bnyk kan . haha . lol . mum said. just order whatever meal we want . haha . so yup. so does boboy .wawa and brother . we had alot of meals (: heh ! ..

after dine in . dinner . walked around non stop . tired . too tired . haha.. thn they home sweet home. and im off to tamp to meet up my bby boy sufiyan thn proceed to pasirs ris park, met up isham and pupu besties . funny plus kecoh . haha . they were drunk ! yup drunk ! home at around 630am.....

(A simple celebration, a gathering of my besties wawa and family ; here is wishing you great happiness, a joy that never ends. Your birthday only comes around once a year so let's make today a day to remember.ure not getting older, just more distinguished. haha .Hope you have the greatest Birthday ever my lovely boboy)

2010-01-27T04:09:00.002+08:00

i fynd this picture so cute plus unique . (:

whye im still up early in the morning at this tyme cause .... i cant sleep !

i woke up at 2m just now . now what . eyes still fresh ! OMG !

random post again today . was chatting wid my bby gerl fareena . talk crap again (: haha non stop. never fail to make mie LOL. chatting wid that aidil olala , again random . he lepak-ing wid usual frne ... his a PIG always call mie orang mabok . thanx sesangat2 ! haha . chat wid wan too . again . school talk -_- nvm . he give good advice tho (: . farid senin, my kawan cowok ku, he always and nvr fail to say NO COMMENT wth ! but still his nice and cared towards mie, nvr fail to listen to my probs. good listening ear . but end up NO comment. takpe horh. aku da masak ngn prangai kau . and still he will make mie laugh in the end. anyways. thanx fr the help tau farid .... and lastly Hany natasha .... (: tht lovely chubby gerl . haha. yup random girls talk i pressume.

Random post .... :

i used to love this guy named ( ^^ ) yup. used too. now lessen . he really tret mie like a shit seriusly . he make mie break down all the tyme . yup ! all the tyme ! get this clear. but still no harm to mie, cause we're just in love not in rs or something shit or husban or whatsoever it is ! seriusly ! i can do whatever things i want . let mie know whos fault now . we quarrel . always , and yes , i want to talk things out , he non stop talking. kalau aku buat gytu kat kau pun kau bingit kan. he tynks about hymself all the tyme.! he wants to win at points. he tynks tt his right at most wheres not even . !well besides being a lover,he was also my friend. i shared everything with hym. he love mie like crazy?and till this day. i ddnt trust hym enough and i followed hym to somewhere he wants to go wid his friends. he told mie about his girl frien to mie. eventually, i lost my temper. adn i started yelling at hym infront of everyone. and i dont this is the best part of it . quarrell all the tyme doesnt make anything goes right. he said. fight means we cared and love but look. the samll things i done . and he talk about mie and other guys wich was i talked about other topik ! wth .

eg , can i meet you ? he replied , go uh meet other guys

end up fight. isnt he childish enough ? think back. i may be a kid . at young age but think twice. m acting as if im not but you are the one tt act like a kid . get tt (^^) !!! and i hope yknow you made a big MISTAKE for doing it and apologise to mie after the long fights. and how many tyme should i say * itx ok* . im sick and tired of it .....

and now .

Sufiyan, really make mie trust on hym much. he make my day . weeks lively !

thanx (:

2010-01-22T14:33:00.010+08:00

5pm .pioneer mrt . somerset mrt . skate park . 313 mall . pokey chocolate . cas & khai . taxi . ct hall .

capitol building . irah . camwhore . bus-ed to clarke quay . bridge . lepak . maggi . smoke . bang & met sharom & friends . drink . jim bean . talk . lepak .

they went to zirca . 1230am . taxi . arab street .

victoria street . club . partying . toilet . drink . dance . chivas drunk ! . hyper . vomit . talk crap .

haleem ram and shawn .

taxi to clarke quay . lepak . vomit . lying down . laugh . fall . sleep . lost . toilet . amir barat & geng came . drink . talk crap . care each other drunkerd ppl . unknown guy . step footballer . gila . ask for a stick . i shoo-ed hym away . camwhore . chill . sleep awhile . 7am . eat . coffee shop . talk . planning . done . they cab-ed home . we train-ed home . seperate ways .

home sweet home at 930am (:

yawnnnn ...

zzzzzz....

argghh and i miss my bestfriend fareena !

the girl who always ..

LET MIE REPEAT AGAIN.

ALWAYS call mie up during her break tyme. how sweet . even i was busy-ly snoring away . she missed call alot of tymes still calling and msg her . haha . damn . now yr turn keje . i da lepas nak kat 3 minggu ny . i pun da nk start keje agyy . haiya .. . both busy already liao !. meet up soon darla besty (:(:

2010-01-18T16:52:00.002+08:00

sorry for not updating any posts lately . geees . im busy with work plus cleaning up house . gosh ! . ): .
so lets begin . kinda random post for today . how ?
nvm. if ya wanna read . go ahead . if ya not intrested . ya can get the hell out from my blog . ty (:

..................

i really miss you badly . seriously ... BADLY ! his flight was arriving in the evening and he had to work for the next day . awww..i took cab , two hours to surprise him at the airport , but i missed him because he had arrived on an earlier flight. by the tyme i gt to the airport, he was long gone . it was a long drive home that night . geees . how could i miss it . he was alone waiting for someone to fetch him . soon after , and long enough fr the duration . he was home alone and get ready fr the nex day ): but whatever it is . i am so glad you are back . you just have no idea how much i missed you !!!! my arms miss holding you . my eyes miss your smile . my ears miss the sound of your laugh. i miss the smell of your hair and the taste of your lips . i miss you head resting on my chest . i miss looking at you across the couch as i rub your leg .i miss holding you face in my hand and staring into your beautiful blue eyes. i missed being held by u . i miss being near u . i miss you badly .

and by the way ....

thank you so much for lifting my spirits the afternoon witha quick phone call. my heart is overflowing with love for you . i miss you desperately bby boy ! gosh gosh !!!!!!

he was just my ex . the long ex ive been waiting for ....

I AM AMAZED AT WHAT YOU DO TO MY HEART .

even we had a bad fight . bad quarrel . but still i long for you . . but i may be heartless for now . im scared . aint a need to force .....

SHAWN ............

2010-01-15T15:24:00.009+08:00

oh yes, glad to see my girlfriends (:

wawa i miss her badly ! so does my bby gerl fareena ! FUCK YOU PPL WHO SAY SUCH THINGS ! hmmpmh !.

met my wawa, for some chilling shopping kinda stuffs ((: . sat by , ate prata cheese hotdog . i bought fr her. haaaa! mahal okeh. fuck. 4 bucks . okeh nvm. just eat ! went to cathay, sat there and chit chats. after awhile off to cineileisure thn thn, to woodlands . lepak . seriusly, fun gyler ! hahah . at around 2am . we're off to clarke quay, met sheriff anf friends there. okeh. SO GAY ! hahha . nah. just joking . just awhile . soon after, at around 4am home sweet home ... next day. im off to vivo . sat there. hmm. bored . raining ):

fuck ! and yea, get to meet up wit fareena bby !. i miss her lotx lotx lotx manxxx ! gagagaga ! okeh shsss . went off to cineleisure. as usual, drink . chit chat . sat with sukor hakim and friends too . and thn off to sheriff house . aww, the cute guy ... haha . jordan was at home too (: sweet thang . haha . fun fun fun ! camwhore here and there. laugh laugh laugh ! haha . due to taking pics weird effects. kinda random you see. and theres sheriff below there. the guy with curly hair . the guy play for s-league (: haha ... bla bla bla. ..lepak there till 5am . arggh. home sweet home. and today plan. hmm. idk ! hahaha ! same again i think. nah. i hope it will be better this tyme (: i miss em ):

2010-01-12T16:28:00.007+08:00

pioneer mrt . alone . harbourfront . still alone . vivo . still still alone . met cassy . daiso . make -up . met dudes . hanafie . aidil . wan . din . monorail . beach station . siloso . wavhouse . bed . lying down . play beach volleyballs . swimming . splashing waters . become the new B ! . drank vodka . laugh . collect seashells . saw big shells still alive . cassy took . showed mie . shocked . run aroun wavehouse . screamed . tired . lied down . resting . suntanning . sleeping . woke up . menu . pizza . plain water . cold . shivering . camwhore . chan and gf came . named ayu . sweet girl . called imran . work there. my friend , a chef . gave free pizza . ate . gave em . camwhore . chair broke . run off . we split . the guys ton . wheres the girls to clarke quay . met up with wan and akhbar for a drink . sat quietly . meet up new friends . sherif & jordan . cute . talk . soccer -_- . sherif and i walked around. exchange numbers . back to place . they're friendly . saw ppl dom stunts with their bike and roller blade . chill . hakim . with friends. chill . fight . cry . off . busstop. taxi . off to sherif house . games games games ! (: and ..... home sweet home the next 2 days . yep . 2 days ! haha ! MANICURED . ! (: ORANGE (:

2010-01-09T14:19:00.011+08:00

pioneer mrt . jrg east last cabin . vivo . sentosa entrance . monorail . toilet . wavehouse . smoking area . beach . shells . camwhore . wavehouse . pizza .toilet . make-up . monorail . train . clarke quay . meet up . dann pal . clarke quay bridge . chat . talked . make noise . sang . bully . shouting . killing (haha) . up bar . drank . green tea . martell . hard . calrke quay bridge . sat again. chat. sit . fight haha . quiet . sang . sleeping . bored . friend came by . ruzaini . sat . bought drink . again . met shukor . and friends . sat . drink . clarke quay stairs . raffles . UOB . sit . mac . met jun yong . new friend made new friends too wit WHITE PEOPLE ! haha . tralalala . home sweet home 630am ! (: with junyong temaning mie hahah !! and thanx to my lovely cassy candy darla fr the taxi again (:

2010-01-05T21:11:00.008+08:00

Sunday . last minute plan cause we're bored . itx cassy who all plan this. i woke up at 330pm on tt day, out from room saw no one at home so yea . i pressumed my family were out or something like tt. haha . alaa, da biase every sunday kat umah bangun lmbt kans. hehe !. yknow whye, cause i hate going out on sunday as theres alot of banglas . haha . being racist huh. OMG ! aite aite. well, really bored actually, ddnt intend to go out tho. reading cassy's text msg about heading to sentosa, apa lagy. haha. SENTOSA freak i guess ! haha. i love going there. tts whye. in a hurry, get myself ready and yea, met her over thn off to sentosa . we went to wavehouse. aww, luckily my friends work as a chef, we gt free pizza plus drinks(: /. thanx imran !... and also ... thanx to all cassy ex work mate there. get to make friends with hafiz and all : . haha . sweetness (: kiter pun berendam luh dalam pool . haha . shoik sendiry . camwhore . nature . and all. haa. get to see ppl surf as well, we do LOL wen they fall. haha . dammit . soon im going to try. haha/ cant wait . !

whye i blog today causeeeeee, im on 3 days mc due to high fever . 38.3 . bad flu and cough. and tears keep falling out frm my dry/wet eyes. idk. it get watery wen i sneeze plus it gets dry wen i tend to squeeze my eyes... weird yea. this week would be my last week of working at tuas. gonna miss my admin peeps there. haha. PR kapeee ! only work fr two days. hehe due to 3 days mc . haha. cheat kan aku ! haha ! okeh. sorry fr not posting properly. kinda brainless. haha !

2010-01-02T18:22:00.022+08:00

MACAM SIAL ITU PB ! lantak aku uh ! and aku rase, aku macam pernah kenal uh care perbualan kau ! (: haaaa !FUCK IT SIAL ! . anyways, FYI ! i dont have alot of pics taken cause memory card FULL ! get thta clear PB ! i aint need you guys to interfere CB ! kan aku darh geram ! pikir senang ke nak upload semue! da lah lmbt plus busy keje . laen uh korang taq keje. issssh ! GERAM BANGET SAMA ITU ORANG ! SABAR JE UH. ...

BTW ! KALAU KAU NAK SNAGAT TNGK GAMBR2 SEMUE, JGN SINNGAH BLOG AKU UH. SINGGAH BLOG ORANG LAEN YANG ADER NEW YR PICS ! SIAL ! kan kan . geram nyerrrrrr !!!!! pfft !

WELL BASICALLY, we went to marina to catch fireworks ( itx aint my plan luh girl. haiya, i was from work okeh YES , FROM WROK , 830AM TILL 630PM! , grrr, i text otang where she wanna head down to, so yea, follow her flow lorhHER PLAN OKEH . ahah ! ape jek fareena nie ! haha ;P )thn off to clarke quay to lepak. yea tts all. kinda bored ... fun part was when we shout real loud wen the fireworks showed up ! haa crazy us. half way taking video. card memory full ): dammit !. (CB PUNYER PB) hmmpmh !

the next day (: 1st jan 2010 . at night . off to haji lane with a group of myne (: haa. kecohrable . heeee !. alaa. tts it. aint wanna talk much uh. GERAM SAMA ITU PB !

& ohh, i miss FIEZA O , we're friends again (: awww ... keep in touch . (: we met up again before new year for some shopping spree. real one indeed (: haha .. had fun with her even tho we spent a little tyme together. still again, the old her BITE-ING ME ! hahaha !. pffft !. geram sama dia !

2009-12-26T16:54:00.004+08:00

Sorry for not posting anything lately. basically, i'm busy with life right now. nusy working plus busy spending tyme with family most thn friends lately. yups (: you know , about family and friends ? hmmm....Just when I thut tht love could never be a part of me, thats when they came along and showed me happiness . a full one indeed. well, eventho i wasnt ready or yet to fullfill their dreams but still and nomatter what ill play my prt and will always be there whenver they in need . Happiness is a choice that I make and sorry to drop the topics,

TO PB .. LISTEN UP . IM HERE JUST TO BLOG, IM HERE TO EXPRESS FEELINGS, IM HERE NOT TO FIGHT OR WHATEVER SHITS YOU THINK OFF MIE. FYI ! IM NOT INTRESTED IN ALL THIS. LIKE WHAT ALL MY FREINDS BEEN HELPING OUT, SAY WHATEVER YA WANNA SAY, ITX FUNN READING IT. ITX LIKE A COMIC YOU SEE. OMG ! SERIOUSLY, I DUNT GIVE A DAMN. TOLD YA. DONT EVER MESS AROUND WIT MIE. YOU GT THE WRONG PERSON. IM NT WHAT YOU THINK OFF. IM SICK AND TIRED OF ALL YOUR SHITS AND NOT ONLY TO YOU . ALL SPAMMERS AS WELL. GET A LIFE WILL YA. NEVER IN MY LIFE SPAMMING PPL. I GT NO TYME FOR TT . SOON, YOULL GET TIRED YRSELF. LISTEN DUNT WATSE YOUR TYME HERE. BE GREAT BEFORE YOU JUDGE OTHERS. IM NOT AND NOTTTT WHAT YOU THINK OFF. I REPEAT THIS AGAIN. SICK & TIRED OF IT. I AINT WANNA ENTERTAIN ANYMORE, JUST READ , LAUGH AND HECK CARE ABOUT IT. TT WHAT I ALWYAS DO WEN THERS SPAMMERS HERE.. YOU GT THE WRONG PERSON. CAUSE I DUNT EVEN WANNA BOTHER ABOUT YOUR SHITS ! GET THAT CLEAR SPAMMERS.. BY ALL MEANS, SAY WHATEVER YA WANNA SAY (: im not a COWARD. I AINT GONNA DELT MY TAGBOARD.JUST A WERD COWARD FOR YOU CAUSE YOURE SCARED TO TELL WHO YOU ARE. SADNESS ... BRAVE TO SAY BUT NOT BRAVE ENOUGH TO SHOW THE REAL PB & SPAMMERS ... HAAAA .......TY FOR READING PPL WITH NO LIFE ESPECIALLY YOU SPAMMERS !

ouhkays. i guess im done here. sorry . i gtg. running late... see spammers. just look at this , youll waste tyme .. im just here to post about my thurs an fri night .. thn about this.. im not wasting my tyme about you spammers. just that i want to make it clear. im not tt type of girl you think off. i have my own limits . get it clear .... aite aite. GTG ! haaa. meeting girlfriends and boyfriends soon over at town thn off to clarke quay. wanna tag along. CALL ME . hahaha .. thats what alvin said (: winks*.

will update soon about my thurs, fri and saturday night wich is today.. will post soon (: haa. it will be a long one indeed. plus lotx and lotx of photos !! haha !

2009-12-18T17:06:00.025+08:00

had fun this days. Happy belated Birthday Ipin ! da 21 punn, btol btol btol. haha..

went out to cash studio beside hard rock cafe (: and yea.... had fun till 5 am . makan2 all. sweet home.

the next day was the resultss and yup ! results were out ! at last , tell you what, i cried before i went out frm my house . idk whye, felt worried , stress and also happy ! haha . so yea.. with confidence i walked out and pray hard (: while walking, i cry halfway, due to mie and zee's life , yknw, we're not in gd terms, shes not there walking . so , im kinda in rush to sch, so i just walked till we met there. i call her up to sit with mie . and yes. i was about to cry, but not, cause at least i can get to talk to her . and seeing my friends in their happy and worried mood ! haha. funny ... told ya, im kinda sensitive at things but ddnt tend to show it all ... ): thn ,. . . we had talks about ite's and all.... bla bla bla. CONGRATS TO WANN FOR GETTING 3 DISTINCTIONS alaaaah miss the chance . haha . geram jek !wahdu !. taqper2. . after that, a finger pointing up high, thts wen Md Suziela our Dearest form teacher call mie up as im the first register num. with fear, and shaky legs to get up, pray hard . . and yesh, shes with delayed, slowly talk to mie . . saying tt * good work * ddnt expect Your business studies were good. speechless* just smile......thn she delayed again, gave photos ,booklet thn .......... the results. ahhhh . im sooooo relieve . . . the results are in my hands and yes .speechless again -_- passed ! ahaaa, as long i can get the course tt i want im really happy with it.... oh my, i cant cry till i call my mum, i heard shes crying with joy too, so do i ! oh gosh!!!! shes soo happy . . heh. yep! okeh okeh. im speechless now. too happy for it. . gtg now, wanna apply sch aye. see you ppl there. haha. soon ull know where ill be schooling !

MDIS OR ITE !. hahaha . MDIS maybe (: great one. mum give mie alot of support due to ME phobia in ITE'S after kena kacau all this while wen we go for open house -_-

til here , will let yknow know the details about the grades and point. haha. aint wanna showing off here (:

and lastly, GOOD BYE BOON LAY SECONDARY !

Mdm Suziela, the sweet form teacher and also she teach mie Business subs . she the one wearing pink ^^^ . shes soo coool !!

Bye Mdm Rohima our P.E teacher. and ahnx for calling the girls pontianak and makcik if we nvr tie our hair nad walk slowly . . haha .

bye Miss Chong, Miss Linda for always run after mie, about friendship bands, short skirts, fingernails,hair,earrings,never wear stokins and tight tops. gahhh ! I miss kena marah okeh. haha. always keep running from them , at last, dpt jugak, maen catching with em. anyways, i miss this few boySfriend alot, Hilmi & istaman, my 9 years of friendship with hym since primary one . Nazif aka Ahzyp, bestfriend since Agama,wen we're pri5 i tynk . the kaki gereks one & kuat merajukzzzz (:. . syed, my bboy dancer . used to be in same grp . .haha . syuk,ju,wann and all luh. just to named it a few cause they my closest bf ever !

and to all to my Dummies. Keep in touch ok babies !

fatihah > Fee/fiona

Nurul Ain > Otang

Humairah > Maggot ? Mairah

Nadiah > Kechik

Ashraf > Pupu

Azzira > Zee

Hazrina > Haz (: sweet thang.

Remembrance !

2009-12-17T14:33:00.002+08:00

Go ahead and say it I love you. You can say it a thousand tymes. But, true love doesnt need to be told.If u once said I wil love you more thn anyone until the day I die, and tt person leaves you; how will you say I love you more than anyone again, or should you say that?A relationship is like a train. If one passes, then the next one will come. Im sure and if you get off the train, ull realize tt everythin is the same. and to tell you that, i no longer intrested in love lyfe yet . i may have alot of guyfrends. dont tynk im the special one to em, i may be the closest one , but dunt tynk otherwise. we're just frend. i treat you tt way. not more. untill the day you 3 guys said it to mie face to face . .i was shockd. i shud have back off in the early state . ddnt mean too. cause you guys are bestfriend.. ddnt intent to make fren ith you in the first place. but wad to do. we're too close enough till the day you fyte, and i ask wads wrong . you guys kept quite and soon enough , i knew it myself. Im talkin abt fate here when feelings are so powerful its as if some force beyond your control is guiding you to someone who can make you happy beyond your wildest dreams.If it is meant to be, our hearts will find each other when we meet. And if our hearts melt together so will our bodies and souls. Then every word and every touch will fuel our passion flame. I will be yours, you will be mine, and we will be one. but you guys are friends. for a long tyme indeed . you guys shud be the one tt shud stayed long and last forever . im here just to be your friend. not more. you shud know, wen i meet 1, 2 will call, and wen i go out wit 3, 1 will call ,2 will get fed up cause he saw mie out wit 3 . how ? wen you three guys out together with mie, tend to get jealous wen i talk much to another party. how ? settle it fast, i back off for now .. tanx for everything bestfriend (:

one last say before i really gone away from you guys...

You fail to see the one who loves you standing right in front as does she fail to see you love her in turn. Dont wait to tell her, because it might be to late then. you're too late by thn ....

2009-12-14T00:34:00.021+08:00

ive already upload the pics last 2 days. just tt i ddnt knew posted, or not. haaa. yup, i check again and not been posted yet. sorry . wooopseey ! haha. sorry guys.... busy working lately, tts whye. no tyme to check it out./ alright2. tell you what, ZOUKOUT WAS AWESOME yep... awesome. haaa. although i wlaked away/far away frm my frens, and i jumped to another dancefloor like alone. ypu see, therese alot of dancefloor with diff genres. tts whye, frends taqnak teman, so i went by myself top the another dancefloor. and coolness!, alot of my frends. really. like alot. kept on changing partners. WE CONQUER THE PODIUM LUHHSSS . TU YANG GEREK. SUMMORE, GET TO DANCED WITH ALOT OF HAWT HAWT WHITE GUYS !!!!! WOOOO !. FAREEN KU JEALOUS SEBB TAQ DPT SATU PUN.. HUHUHUH....... !! THATS IT, OVERALL WAS tired plus fuN PLUS GEREKZ GILERZZZZ ! ohh gosh !... we dance from 1am till 8 am. haaa..KAKI KU SAKIT.reach home 12pm cause we slack over at beach. -_-

WTH WTH ! AWESOME GILER BABZZZZZ luhh !!! HAHAHA ......

IN RETUN THIS COMING SAT, WAVEHOUSE... WE'RE COMING TRU.....

*AGAIN* HAAA. SEE YOU GUYS THERE LOVELY MATES...

I GTG, WANNA SLEEP, JUST CAME BACK FROM WORK.

TIRED LIOAAAAAAAAA !

lastly ....

fareena love her purple horn

i love my red horn !!

2009-12-12T16:22:00.006+08:00

yesterday .... heh. not really tt fun . basically, i was in a rushed from work thn met up friends over at town. OMG ! ahaha.... kaki sampai sakit using tt pump shoe to town. MAK KAU ! pedih ..... k shss. met em around 845... thn off to arab street ... as usual, sheesha (: at around 10 plus. stayed ther till 145am. thn off to boat quay, makan mc (: thn off o bus stop, sumwher near penin. waited fr rabu to fetch mie home at 430am. an em, taking cab home. huhu ..

okeh. shuts now. sorry uh.. today post mcm lazy nak talk real english and malay. taq tau apa sal uh. ..heh. MALAS!. malas untuk post jek, yknow whye, cause dora saving energy to party later on ! SENTOSA.. HERE WE COME !. haha........ okeh shoik. kay da bye .... ! lazy to edit. woooosh !

2009-12-10T07:22:00.002+08:00

Current Mood : Sleepy , tired , Morning signess (flu)

Current Song : Crawl ( chris Brown )

Where : At home ( waiting for the tyme to get out from house )

Basically, now im waiting wen the tyme is right for mie to go out from werk.. sorry guys ddnt make up for any of your outings. basically, im busy now due to morning shift ... unlike the old tymes, afternoon and night shift. now MORNING ! gaah !> nvm. now used to it already. but you have to see my panda eyes. hahah . oh my god . at last the 2 weeks of new work place over at office, finally yesterday i gt to get out from hse enjoying with ipin,rabu,wan,is and some MINAHS ! . omg . till we went to kedai kopi, i ddnt slacked with em, cause yknow i know. dislike it much. sorry if terase. just tt i dunt like it -_- ... hmmm....

work work work... tts life to make money ... Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If i want to conquer fear,i dont sit at home and think about it. i rather Go out and get busy with life ... tyme is short if you were to realize it ...As busy as I claim to be, Ive still got the greatest job in the world . wich really can suppot mie monthly ... haha. BANGGE GYTUK KAN !. woooo... taqder luh. in my 16 years living, and my 2 years of working life, monthly pay was not lyke this b4. haha. ye lah, pertama kali keje dpt gaji besar. haha.. and im just 16 here having the same pay as office ppl, like my mum do (: haha. all thanx to her and her company for mie working with em (:

alright2. mummy calling mie now to get fully ready.. heh. telling you what we're late. suppose to reach by 8 . haha. we're still at home. huhu.. MUMMY LATE UHHSS !!

2009-12-06T19:13:00.008+08:00

5th december .. saturday wasnt tt bad afterall ... itx my Big Brother 18th birthday... went to seouls garden,marina square... had fun tho !. really. ate till i cant.. full to the max oii !. and yup, sape suroh taqnaq bbl, aint my fault. cause im enjoying myself with family, yr fault by not talking and make the jokes and stuff. so yea.. whatever ehh!. nowadays...eventually, parents hd a greta tyme talking to mie. lyke i said, everything changes (:

after our dinner, went to orchard, as parents wanna take pictures. haaa.. some of the pitures were at my bro card. as in in his sd card . sape ckp dier taq pegang camera aku. bbl tu agak2 ... i lent it to hym, itx just tt his making faces. lyke i told you ppl, i dont give a damn.... winks*. sad, happy ora whatsoever, i dont give a damn. all i know, i wanna be my ownself... GET THIS ! heh...

after walking with family, parents thut of wacthing movie. heh. and almost all the movies they said, ive already watched. eg, 2012,paranormal activities.... heh. end up they, mum,dad and boboy watched over at jurong point,late night movies . the ET Movie. Hahaha. tts cute. my big brother ddnt join i think. yup. tts what my mum told mie. they went home at 130am. heh. yup, before they off to jrg point, were still at orchard right ? yups... i splited with em, i met up with my gerek friends whil them back to jurong (: ... had fun with friends even theres isnt alot of our gereks clan joining...most of em went to clubs.. heh wheres we sat over at cineileisure, played truth and dare, mie chatting over at msn and check taggeds..make nuisance and all. heh. kinda random.. splited with em at around 150am while em still slacking over... heh. damn tired plus wanting to go melaka wheres NOT ! haha, taq jady. gare2 aku bagun lmbt plus mummy told mie tt ibu was sick. so yea, stayed home thn (: . and just so yknow, i woke up at 645pm ! hahahha . not yet bathe strght away sit down and blog (: tmr working, so lazy to go out today ): ... alaaaaah ! tmr 830am till 630pm shift ... fuuuh !

2009-12-05T13:37:00.016+08:00

had fun yesterday night . it was raining heavily here over at jurong and my workplace yesterday. so yea, tend not to go out, as i was home to put stuff awhile..eventually, boredem strikes i went out and met up with my bbgs (: i was late.. heh.. woops !... not tt late ... met up with em over at orchard mrt at around 630. thn off to far east for makan .. after awhile sat outside far east for some camwhoring and proceed to taka , took acul there and off to cineileisure.. basically, ntg much to do, as usual, sat there chit chat, chilling and all. and at last. i met up with my sweetest bby boy friend of mine , khairul as i force hym to meet mie up. ahaha..cute one. and all my gfs layan hym coz his cute. okeh. cemburu aku.! haha. taqlah. kawan pah !.. heh.. after tt... drink drank ang get drunk. heh. not heavy indeed =p.... intended to go zouck as one of fareena's friend ask along, too bad, all wearing slipers yaw ! =C www, hahaha. kecian pahhh ! hahah..
aite aite, buzz off at around 1140pm. seperated with em as i took bike home with khairul (: heh.. home sweet home . 12.20am. siang pah !. daddy ku terkejut !!! hahahahah lol..
everything changes .. everything went sooo well...

imlovingitsomuch !!!!!!!!!!!
overall, fun hippy , awesome night !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-03T13:57:00.012+08:00

FUNexhaustedCOOLtiredAWESOMEhappy !!

i can only describe that only... tired now.... wooosh ! (:

im letting the pics do the talks instead (: hahaha...

!??? SCARY ????!

2009-12-02T04:44:00.003+08:00

whye am i still not sleeping yet at this tyme ? well, basically, i slept at 7am yest morning and woke up at exact 12.03 am just now. ahaa. long hours of sleeping huh. tts weird. and body start to ache now.! . yawning all the tyme by couldnbt get my eys close. so decided to download songs and watch movies tru internet. step brave skejab, with no fear, i watched paranormal activities , alone ! haaa. yes ALONE ! okeh. i shouted just becoz of the sound effects. padahal nothing. heh ! lol...... so after awhile, rabu text mie, asked mie to call hym, yea, call hym since im bored as well, we talked about life and all. heh. he always make mie laugh siah.! what a gundu freind. yes . his just my friend anyways (: haha... RABU OHH WEDNESDAY ! hahhahaha...i always feel butterflies! in myy stomach every tyme that i see an talk to rabu . his one of my greatest friend. and without shyness occurs, i always shared problem to him. tanz for the listening ear (:

Itx an unusually hot night. Im lying in bed…alone, thinking of you. Listening to slow, soft music, my mind slips into solitude, eyes closed. Air from the fan embraces and showered air cons breezing tru my body. We had spent a beautiful day together, and then took our separate ways home. thats was the past... Now the memories of the tyme spent together fill my head and I smile to myself. Oh yes! The time spent together was too short, as always. and i hope and wanting to knew that im not able to know him as always. cause i hate him much day by day past, even he just texted mie up just now. angryness filled again, couldnt accept what he have done. but still, i have the grudges . just wait and see. enough is enough.. never will return...

77% of cheatin men hav a gdfriend who cheated.

Hanging around friends who stray makes cheating seem normal and legitimizes it as a possibility. he knew , he wunt do it ever again, but not telling hym to get apart from the loves one. i knew you were friends. but not in this kind off state. unapreciatable . barinstrom tht friend of yours who loves mie much . and do you tynk ill care about you both again ... text mie ! yull know how ill react.. i may be the devil in both of you guys eyes. but to an angel to someone tt appreciate mie much. you can say im bad, say whatever you want, all i know im always be the old dora ppl will know... but to you, no way in return ! devil into you guys...

but i just hope tt guy tt used to love mie know whats happening around.. and i wish yknow how i felt, itx only yr closes friend knows evrything about it.... Rusty .. ( i used to call hym)the guy i always shared with...

2009-11-28T08:37:00.007+08:00

well, nothing much to do on hari raya haji .... hmm. basically, we woke up damn early just to rush off to Sultan Mosque . yes Sultan Mosque which located far from my hometown. haaaa . while the guys were praying we girls, mum fareena and mie head down to tepak sireh and also errr, idk what this musuem call. kan ! fuck. i luper !! hahah. whatever luh. we spent our days most over at the museum. walked here and there . haha. after all done . dad sees the kambing kena sembelih . heh cute one .. after that off to kallang , ate over at KFC . since malay stalls were close. like all of them. haa. yea. fast food pun fast food luhs ! hurhur ! . . da makan semua, head down to nanny house , at sims drive. sat that from 330pm till 5pm. thn rushed off to ibu and my aunty house. woooo !

BAKSO NYA ENAK BANGAT GYTU LOOHH ! hahaha (: yum yum. thats what we had for dinner at my aunty house (: .... soon thn . home sweet home at around 9pm... ddduhg ! im off to sleep like damn early. woke up at 12 am. nmpk fareena da taqder. haha. shes out with her fren wheres mie snoring at home.tired okeh !> soon thn i cant sleep. tanx to danial. call mie for lepak. yes we did (: hurhur.. coolness ! had fun with

danial, hafiz,aul,achmad,adam,kelfel (1st grp)

iskandar,yusman,rabu (2nd group) woooo ! rounding here and there. yayness ! reach home at arnd 430 am (: winks* hehe. what a day. ! and im still here cant sleep. pfffft !

WAKEY WAKEY YOU GUYS ! Good Morning Btw !

2009-11-25T10:01:00.013+08:00

photos above were taken on our GRAD NIGHT which was on D 23rd Nov 2009 ! ahaa. the day that ill never ever gonna forget (: the moments we had fun, enjoying, hugging, kisses, flowers, taking pictures here and there. ohh gosh ! i miss it alot !... the most cooolest part was the last 45mins of non stop electro , hip hop & rnb non stop music DJ IN THE HOUSE YAW ! hahah . damn. d food not really tt tasty. buffet , so we tend to take like alot. yea. who cares. we've already paid .. ching ching $$$ ! haaa. dessert looks nice but too bad. i dislike it. yucks ! hahah . aint wanna talked much here... theres more photos to be upload. waiting for my friend now. ahaaa !....

my 1 week that has just past was amazing ! really .... fun to the max . and yea. i miss my whole family as well... and no matter what i did texted my mum asking how and all. she knew what happen. shes an understanding MUM i ever had . i really do love her alot ! eventho i was far from her, still will never forgt. she understand the situation much.. she knew i can take care of myself. she give mie tyme and yes. here i am with her now (: i miss my adek and daddy too ! (: awww. haha. im sorry as what i already did say .... and now another problem about *that guy* haish......... nvm. still im gald to have my parents around (: love em !

2009-11-13T15:25:00.006+08:00

yesterday was a blast one. ahaa. not really. woke up pretty early again to work...thn off to fetch my besties nazif (ah zyp) over at sentosa. gahhhh ! rainY day really make my day gooo zzzZzZzZ.....aite. what ever it is. had fun with hym. shopping awhile over at vivocity. and i bought myself 2 earings from forever 21. kinda cute (: ahaaa . winks* . after tt went off to search for shoes. damn !. those campers shoe and clarks on display shoes really attract mie much okeh ! damn. and it cost lyke $300 over. aiyyyoooooo! ..damn nice. pffft !. how i wish i can get tt lyke on tt tyme . pffft ! hahahs. .. after jalan2.. tired.. we're off to sit outside and had a smoke. randomly...idk from nowhere, a caller called, talking about * ive been selcted to choose this 3 choice of free gift, 1st, $10,000 shopping voucher from any outlet and malls,2nd 1 to 1 star cruise with free meals, 3rd 8days 7 nights free meals to thailand for 5 person * -_- thers lots more actually. cut it short. and yea, put down the phone and i said * what a crapshit talk nonsense !! fucking ppl, fuck this ppl who prank me. fuck uh !! ....... but what if itx real * hahahah. lol. whatever luhhhs. merepek uh ny semue...-_- fucking lame . kk. back to the topic. heh.. so yea, after tt we walked off took train, while we're on the escalator, and wen i stepped on it yea, obviosly itx just nice fr two ppl standing right ? uhhuh, behynd mie, theres tis one apek, pfft. really irritates us. thn i was lyke .* apee sial ny apek dkt2 ngn org * yes, again, deakat(near) tomy face. pffft, and still can whislte in my ears loudly.hey yknow what, if i turn right, i can nearly kiss hym tauus ! pffft! so nazif grab mie and hug. (step couple gytu) klah, i did hug hym as well, ... but thn mangkok pe ! he stand beside mie, as i told you , itx enough fr two ppl standing. maen giler ny apek, maen selit jek sebelah aku. pfft !. he stand exactly beside mie! and still have the guts to look at mie . thn without fear i said * what what,* (my hands keep swaying up high) thn he follow the way i did . grrr. geram peeerh. da sampai bawah, he looked back,smile at mie thn again, he did that to one business women. hahahah !mangkok per. gila siah tuu apek. hahahah ! i da macam org gyle maki2. haha. nazif ask to stop all tt but i fefuse. haha. gyler kan. i da luh phobia ny semua. haha !.....

thn yea...took train stop over at pioneer . off to pioneer mall. met up with my babes and hunks . lepak2 till late night. and off to zee cribz at around 1230am after sending fareena off. watch haunde. and yea, we cried again watching tt show. heee. off from her cribs at 430am. grrrr.. tired tired. haaa. what a day (:

and i cant wait for late event. basically, i missed keleidorama ): damn !. i woke up late ): nvm. will be meeting up my hunks and babes again over at town later (: wooooo ! will update again soon (: toodles yaw !

2009-11-12T04:40:00.002+08:00

Sometymes itx the tings tt you cant do, that brin out the brilliance of wht you can!Wen you are low wit nowhere to go remember tis, when you open your eyes, ur heart, yr spirit, yrself, there you will fynd the stranger called hope. i may nolonger b there fr you. cause i know. im not the want for you. and as you can see, im trying my hard to make you give up on mie. trust mie. soon you will. and i can see day by day . you're acting diff as well. feel lyke giving up soon. well, tyme will come for it .... just wait yea... i know and may not be the dora you know so far and used too. the days . the moments. and the tymes we had. all not meant much..Just bcause somethin gd ends doesnt mean somethin beter wont begin. but till here and has came by . the future aint what you wish for....

Hard tymes are simply tt---TIME---tyme passes and tings do get better. So, just stick through it and one day you will look back on it and think (OH MAN!) that was nothing WORTH. REALLY...you just waste the tymes on mie...You must have hope in your heart before you can love. you always think about d humankind thoughts. how could i ?

by YOU PRESSURING mie much lately. and so desperately in need mie back whch i know i cant be with you....heyy ...Do not change who you are for anyone. If God, in all his wisdom, made you the way you are, he did it for a reason. this is what i call itt karma.... and this is what i call humankind !!! love cant be force . so ... let be it. my heart no longer meant for you. and itx seems so weird. you tynk negatively on mie .! haish. yea, lyke what i will say

* say whatever you want as long as you are happy *

i change for gd. i know you cant see it. i aint wanna show it to you. cause in your eyes,you see DEVIL in mie. tts what you will tynk off. and seriusly it hurt mie much . nvm. i change it fr good. and not for you anymore !Everyday begins and ends with a thought, this I know... Everyone of your days begins and ends with a thought of me, this I hope...Make it a habit to give whether yrself, yr tyme, a word of yr encouragement, or a listenin ear n ull fynd peace and happiness tt cant b beat. all i need is that. but ... you aint wanna trust my words nomore.felt hurt. really hurt. and i know, it was my fault for everything...but after all...nothing worth the chance......

Thanks once again .....

2009-11-10T09:00:00.028+08:00

SORRY GUYS FOR THE LATE UPLOAD AND POSTING OUT YOUR PICTURES. DAMN BUSY. seriusly. ahaaa. had fun each and everyday. and yea, almost everyday reached home at arond 6 in the mornin !. ahaa. ttss my lyfe. ahaaaa... really had fun with my bby gerls. fareena & zee . and some dudes and babes there too (: gosh !. ahaaa.. went to novena, velocity,fish & co, sentosa,town....thats the first day. alright.. idk wen it held i really frgt the date

and yea.. so on...

2nd day went to kallang, leisure park,town,pasir ris whitesand..

ahaa. idk. alot to list down. to johore with family and friends. enter to msia just with mum bla bla bla...really had fun with bbyg fareena slept over at my house fr 2 days (: tralalala... met up with iqbal and friends too (: met up with fareena's A.I.M B hahaha....yea..and lots more. just let the picture do the talks. still gt lots more. tired to wait luh !! hahaha. whatever.... toodles thn (:

i've enjoy everything i have in lyfe now (:

really appreaciate it alot !

freedom is all i need now(:

i really treasure and cherish it

2009-11-02T10:47:00.002+08:00

Current song : I need you now by Kat Deluna

Current mood : sleepy , happy , blur sotong !

Laughter is the one true thing everyone will always need. ohh yesh, happiness refill again ...Laughter is lyke a fresh new day, each giggle is the dawn of a new morning brighten up my day and smile with laughter with hym around mie. i can feel the love again with hym wen his by myside (: right bby? happy, playing soft toys fights late night ? hahah . yarhh, he love hitting mie back with my barney wen i hit hym first with my *bantal bushuk* hurhur ! (:

All I really need is love, but a little chocolate now and then doesn't hurt! cause, eating tt will and for sure somehow relax my mynd (: well i herad ppl said this.....

It is said that, 'You cant change the lyfe but you can always change yourself. So, if you and I start to change then we have already begun changing the lyfe' . this is what i trying really hard so far... hmm, idk if it really gonna work or not. .. i hope everything will go smoothly as i want it to happen soon . well basically,Advice is only asked to be given when you know the true answer you just don't want to believe it wen i said the truth. well, it will taketyme to trust again... i understnd much.... baby, Just because people change and move on with life, it doesnt mean that they love you any less. im trying to move on here... by loving you more and start anew ! trust mie this tyme......

alright alright. urm, i woke up early today !. yea. i guess so.... itx still 10am plus.. which supposely i used to wake up at around 4pm-5pm ! hahahah. and ohh, sad news and uhhuh woke up early because, i gt an emergency call. not really . gf text mie up, and i called her up . saying tt one of our friend just passed away ): i was lyke ! OMFG ! haish... still young . at the age of 20 his gone .

You might be covered by eyelids closed over your whole being, or reach with desperation for something alive to hold onto. Your fingertips will hide in a fist. No more palms open to lyfe. Humbled, the very ground will seem so large. Someday the earth will own you. till here, will tears us away... remembering the moments we had all this while.... the laughter,sadness and now grief.. gone all of sudden really shocked mie much ! your name will always remembered .....

2009-10-29T09:58:00.014+08:00

well, i woke pretty early today . idk whye. guessed i slept the whole day yest . YES ! whole day . i was in the room all alone. okeh. taqya nak cerita kan lagy. bacer luh post kat bawh tuu. pffft !. now having body aching. heh ! sleep and rest way too much. and uhhuh, home sick lyke again ): ohh . just now , i was browsing tru newspaper, classified. yups. they need alot of student to work . yea, so i decided to circle about for some avail jobs that i can . part tyme will do . ahaa. having two work in one tyme was pretty tough i guess. haa. had found one job tt really attract mie much. so called up . uhhuh. they need someone to start work asap. heh. itx over at town area. well, aint wanna let yknow wher it will be, kinda admin stuff and all . hmm, im not sure where and what to do later on sunday. they said, i can come over and start work on sunday . i was lyke wow. the things ill is to fle in documents, print out documents and as well as email documents to ther company. easy task for sure . hmm, hope so ... pr hour 7 bucks . really damn okeh with it. working time will be from 9am till 9pm and free transport will be given. hurhur ! cool thang. well, itx just a 3 days in 1 week work and so on.... sunday , monday and wednesday. this the days i will attend...till end of december (: ahaa. at least something okeh... and yea, about the Shangrilla Hotel thingey, woooo! what a blearghhh...... itx gonna be tough working over at banquet as waitress! haha. nvm . (: need money mahx > (: anthing can. hahas ! 2 work at a tyme. ahaaa. tough tough tough ! . ....

and yes.
WHO TINKS YOU WORK FOR $$$$ !? of coz. i work for money, you guys do too tyte !?. thn what for we work, waste our tyme and effort for the customer. pikir free perr ! haha. stupid quest siah tt guy . .i mean. my manager. gong ! hahaha !

okeh, im starving ryte now. ouch. tummy hurt alot. really. not yet eaten since yesterday morning. butttt, haish, once i touch the food, and put it into my mouth i cant able to swallow it. no appetitie .. haish ... i just need a rest... or maybe ill call zee to come over and teman mie for awhile . haish. ):
what a day ):

and the photos have been upload ! grab it . haa. sorry for the late upload yea ppl ! ... no mood . toodles. till here. will update again ....

2009-10-29T03:02:00.003+08:00

dearest bestfriend pupu

Current Mood : *thinkless* Bored .

Current song : If i let you go by Westlife .

haha . thanx hamdan ... lyke again . i won't even wanna bother ! my life so what . do you tynk i care ? and ohhh, bikin girls i respect as well alright . itx modern lyke hello . as if like i care . their way of living in this world so i cant stop em as well. sal jealous pe spammers ! haha . get a lyfe . i dunt even care . winks* ......

back to the topic where i was about to post. urm yea. i was in the room from lyke ,,, 630 am yest till 230am now ! . i just bathed . yea, ive go no appetitie to eat really . i was all alone in my room . sleep . hear music . read books . thn again and again . and at last i came out from my room lyke rat finding food . but wen the food was in my hand, i couldnt eat it ): haish. * alright i sound so budak2 kecik gytu* haaaa . but itx true ! And all through the room surrounds .Not a heartbeat was silent . it can be heard loudly wen i inhale/out. Not a smile on my face . not a single tears no more falls ...Tyme does not bring relief you all have lied. Who told me tyme would ease me of my pain! Or you see theres no time to waste, and plow into previously feared goals. i Try to be patient if it takes you years to return. This is the fall that gives wisdom, perspective, gratefulness. It is worth the crawl, back to life. but not rmmbering the hatred, the bad tymes i had in the past .... and with the yesterday incident seriusly taq perlu in my lyfe . really sickening ! mintak kene yakdush* ! Every moment without you, is a moment of time lost.The more I know you, the more I love you. the more we argue. the more i will choose you from the rest ! whye you ? whye . Gfs said, move on dora . just move on . he not the right guy for you . and i will reply , i guess his the one.whye ? how bad we fight, how bad we are, we're still together. i still choose he among the rest !but i guess. this is it. i should give up. even nabil called mie up and said.

nabil: Dora.. hello... i Heard that you've gt a big prob . whats the matter?

Dora: i shout hearing guys voice* i guess im over it . im scared to hear guys voice for now ): ntg . ntg matters you anyways. dont call mie. dont!

Nabil: dora, im always here for you, so as hamdan and naz. we're friends. even you dont share with mie. soon we will know.

Dora: shsssss* put down the phone.

He called again and again. so do hamdan and naz ):

im sorry guys for not picking up your calls.

and to zu and ayeen . much appreciated . thanx for help yesterday . really. i felt so damn ashamed towards you guys ): but im so thankful to have you around. really. thanx for being there with mie wen i really need sumone .....

Azzirah . thanx for accompany-ing mie just now. i sleep tightly wen ure by myside. aww. how sweet of you. thanx . i couldnt get my eyes shut properly wen just so you entered my room. hug mie tighly, i soon sleep tightly. thanx darla (:

Pupu . im Sorry BFF ! im really sorry . haish. what a tragedy / we just get back together. close friends indeed. itx been long we texted . and just yeast we patch up and a new life. new chapter of friendships storys... omg ! i ddnt new this would happen so badly . im sorry pup bestfriend... nomatter wad. i liysm and i miss you soo !!! i dowan to loose you again pupu.. im sorry fr wad ive done to you , the past was really bad. lets start anew..tinky winki! hehe. hugs*

2009-10-26T17:25:00.025+08:00

well, basically, this was lyke all the last year photos . let mie repeat again, LAST YEAR PHOTOS ! hahah. so yea, i upload all this cause ... I MISS THEM SO MUCH ! these was al my secondary lyfe, days, memories with em, last year hari raya outing, after sch lunch at kfc, fine dining outing at marriot hotel,racial harmony pics was in berita harian as well (: , eating pizza outside teachers' staff room, mascot on racial harmony wearing sari (: , celebrating national day (this year) and yea, thers more to upload, but itx enough, i cried uploading and seeing about the past, really , i cried plus hearing if i let you go by westlife (: aww, seriusly very touch, why not you my dearest classmate, try doing this and hear tt song, really touched ): gosh ! i feel lyke meeting everyone now !! nvm, our grad night coming, just wait, i cant wait to see you guys, for sure i will cry badly , again, LYKE BADLY ! kinda sensitive in all this pfft pffft, only my girls know the true mie . never forget the hard and good tymes we hard all this while, i really tresure it much ....I cannot say good-bye to those whom I have grown to love, fr the memories we have made wil last a lyfetyme and nvr knw a good-bye.Lyfe may lead me to new and different paths, meet new friends, learn new things ... but this will remain true wherever lyfe takes me, Ill always remmbr the path where I met you my dearest dummies and so do the guys, well, i miss everyone in class, but not all, only to whom tt is very close (:

to my DUMMIES :

Otang (ain) : love Helping each other win and take pride in each others victories. very bubbly known as laughing machine in class (:

Fee (fatihah) : the innocent looking type but more to pfft pfft, naughty . love helping friends and she love to motivate and cheer ppl up wen they are down (:

Mai (humairah) : sweet lady that also loves to cheer people up , the kindoff sacastic kinda way of talks but it really makes us laugh out load (: the girl who alwyas make us laugh . and not forgetting very kind indeed (:

Zee (Azzira) : ahaaa, the chubby one known as the *fishball* ahaa, love to cheer ppl up as well, good in maths love helping ppl in studies. very advisable . caring to others as well (:

Haz (hazrina) : the quiet innocent weird kinda look , okeh shsss. shes suspiciously amazing in doing something that we dont take note off and dunt intend off doing it, but the most kind in anyways, indonesia freak lyke i do ! ( ohh we're cousin for good ness sake ) hhaha .

Nady (nadiah) : shes what i called, *SHAWTY IN THE HOUSE YAW* ahaa, very active, love cheering ppl up, very nottie(always) haha. the joker of our days (:

Pupu (asraf) : the most caring and lovely guy ever. very unique. very strong in anyways he face off . the guy that always put a big smile on us . how i wish we could get back lyke the old days pupu ): i miss you badly , the laughter , hugs we had lately ): hmmmm.....

and this was all in you my dummies

MY DUMMIES applauds my strengths, understands my weaknesses and appreciates the combination we had been tru . they the ppl i salute with all my heart, nommater bad or gd tymes we had. the moments i cherish will nvr erase from my heart . truly deeply (:

till here, meet up soon on our grad night (: love yall !

2009-10-26T02:41:00.010+08:00

look above. all that was my saturday night outing (:

basically, i liked most was went we sat outside cineileisure . making the MJ kinda dance thingey. ahaa, kinda cute. we laugh out loud, ate magnum, lyke ohh * yum yum * . bought mgzines . heee, kinda bored actually after proceeding to the front area, met up and make new frends and ohh yea,i was sick at the point of tyme, took panadol and zoooop* i felt so weak and sleepy, and it was lyke all the way i kept myself quiet till we splited off. haaaa ! nvm ... just let the pictures do the talks-ed . damn tired. just had my bathe , just gimme a break. hehh... nights ya'll !

2009-10-23T11:21:00.014+08:00

well, yesterday was just another plain bored outing with bby love zee (:
.... haha. planned to bugis, but we dropped off over at outram to vivo city instead. haha. kinda random ... so yea,.. as usual, went shopping from river island to topshop... zee and i bought a pair of shoe and as well , earrings,bangles (: afterall, went to watson and get ourself errr, urm, hair dye ? haaaaa. yea... kinda random stuff we bought (: ... tired of shopping, we're off to rooftop, took some pictures and soooooo *gerak* from there at around 845pm..proceed to pioneer mall, as usual, lepak ...... till 230am... and off meet baby awhile ... (: alright2 ...

just let the pictures do the talks aye ? (:

2009-10-21T23:50:00.006+08:00

Current mood : moody /sick / boring
Current song : Happy by Leona Lewis (:

haaaa Chuuumm ! there goes my sneeze ): *sniff sniff*  gosh . im down. home sick or love sick i guess ): awww... i forcce myself not to go out today. oh yesh. i did (: but damn, sickness strike, lyke OMFG !!! pffft ! ohh, i miss my baby . my baby busy i guess . hmmm. so aint wanna disturb . arrgh !I miss him in the weeping of the rain .. haha.. even tho it doesnt rain, but evrytime we get close or even sleep tightly, rain falls..... the sign of not letting mie go far away from hym, haha !and and hey i love to define love. theres alot and yea, kinda hard too to define it .. haha . here it goes again.....
Love means to learn to look at yourself 
The way one looks at distant things  
For you are only one thing among many

I miss you a little, I guess i could say, a lil too much, a little too  often, n a little more each day.. heeeh. i do sund so *the taq perlu bilang orang luh kans* hahah... elleeh, korang pun kpo nnty naq tawu., taq update for 3 days jek da strt ckp * plz update blog, * bla bla bla !!!!pfffft ! okeh back to the tpic. so where am i .... hmmmm ( sorry kinda plain bored right now )
Why do I love you? Because you are and always have been my dream.
I loved you once, I love you still, I always have, I always will...
I love you nt bcause of anythin you have, but because of somethin tt I  feel when Im near you .... thanks for being there for mie baby (: itx hard for mie to let you go, even we fight badly . i still loving you nomatter what happens...Lovin you is wht Ive learned so easily. Tryin to frget you is the last  tin I cld possibly learn, bcause 'm deeply in love with you.


alright alright. today post really plain bored. omg ! the loves arrive. this is what happens if im really crazzy in love. huahua !
alright. enough for today post. busy texting my baby. his bored so does mie, might as well, i text babyboo (: and bby say, how he wish he could be by my side and comfort mie.  heh..... gdnight ppl !

2009-10-20T14:24:00.003+08:00

Current mood - bored , sleepy

Current song playing - lagu kita (aizat)

well, im getting this all over again . oh yes . ALL OVER AGAIN . mka eit real please.

so here it goes. no songlish please dora. hahah -_- k shss. lets begin........

i was dissapointed at the moment of tyme lately . i couldnt take it as reality but i must face the fact as well, and to accpet every words that he have to say . i may accept all those . but what if my friends heard that ? hmmm, never in my lyfe someone said tt ): i aint wann alte you guys know what was it . seriusly, this is my own reputation tt i can only share with my true friends. hmmm, but most of it he makes me feel alive and wanted.WE TALK abt all kinds of tings but most of all I lyke the way we kissed . I go all funny inside just thinkin about it. those random kiss as in. look and gaze into his eyes and kiss him on the cheeks .. Hes a wonderful lover and I just dont want to be apart from him, but I must as I am committed to someone else whom I am not 'in love' with. i have to pretend all this while. i aint wanna lie no more. im in love with you more thn him . i swear ! how i wish you could know this. i just wanna be freinds with him. not more. im kinda lost for a moment of tyme. i aint want the old you, tt uve been pulling and pushing mie hard . it really hurts mie alot. i dunt need thosefights . im a girl and shouldnt get bullied by guys easily. im so fucking pissed off ): im touched about yesterday also. those days , those promises i shouldnt get played over it ): how i wish i could let yknow by gazing tru each other eyes and the inner feelings i had . yesh i know, itx been months im not in love. but all thanx to you, the love arrival came .... but im not expecting the moments i had for now. im scared .... whenver you said the word *ily* i may look away and smile .........

. When petty arguments start to enter the relationship it is usually a sign of something deeper that may be bothering mie or him. Are there any other outside stresses that may be part of the situation?

2009-10-20T13:43:00.009+08:00

AGAIN. SORRY for not updating .. computer kinda lack.

basically, had fun on thurs till monday.

thursday - st james

had fun damn fun . met up alot of friends (: ahah. i miss them lyke alot ! everything was just FINE..... (:

Friday - out to town

with xiu ling and friends (: bored . took neo prints and all (: haha. fun too . went for shopping as well. heh. cute one. winks*

Saturday - hari raya open house ( 5 houses )

my planned with the aiyaya clans was cancled . i men, i couldnt make it, but in the end met up with em over at my paman's house (: hahah ( om seng seng! ) hahah . cute shasha and manje (:

jady baby sitter for the day . tired banget ):

i miss shasha,diah,manje,jasmine,rifkie . haha... jage ny semue buly pengsan tawuk !

Sunday - outing with my family and bring husaini along with mie (:

great one. went to cactus paradise !! hahah lol. those cactus are cute relly. comel tawss ! thn thn went to ikea, dad talked to husaini . lyke * bla bla bla * idk -_- haha..

after that off to changi makan makan makan. beh off to my dad's friend house . haaa.. anf off to pioneer mall with boboy and husaini. heh. lepak till 2.30am. and ouch ! eyes still hurt alot ):

(overall, outing was awesome with husaini accompany mie with my family)

Monday - out with bby love husaini and zee to town

b4 met up with love, wen for girls shopping. haa. and as usual. no guys are allowed to follows, yknow. girls stuff !durh !. and yea. we spent lyke almost $300 for just one day. and we sacriice our self not to eat a single thing. till i cannt tahan, i bought mysel a pack of cook, famous amos. uhhh ! lazat bangat. and yea, tummy pain strike again . gahh. im getting fatter and fatter ): awwww gosh ! okeh shsss ! and lastly, met up with love, lyke again ! planned canceled. bowling, movie, karoake all cancle !!! gah. fuck up uh kayy ! shit sgt2 !

sorry, today post kinda not in a gd mood. pfft ! pagy2 da kene gegar go school. . & yea, ntg much happened . surf net before break and sleep lyke pig after break tyme . haha. and tt was my day (: laughter fills agn with my lovely girlfriends (:

2009-10-16T15:44:00.005+08:00

Monday , 11/12 OCT

Night/Morning OUTING.

First plan night safari . canceled ):

Second, bowling . cancel ): later my long nails crack ! pffft ): cause just made it .

Third . movie. jady tau !! tralalala.... we took the wrong train and alight at the wrong exit . and arrived at cineileisure at 12am. no late night movie. grrrr ! ):

so yea, we proceed to the merlion instead till 4am . haha. chilled there and yesh. saw this cresent. wow ! nice one. damn big if you see it directly (: had fun with husaini tho we ddnt get to go for the first 2 plan .. perhaps nex tyme

without wasting the pages for updating.

on MONDAY EVE went out xiu ling aida 12 october

search jobs at orchard area. ohh gosh. seriously i miss going out with her. itx been long we last contact on june i guess ? before our N level starts. yea. no no. before puasa. alaah , same uhh ! haha .. hmmmm. go out soon yea. rmbr the neo print thingey !!! haha ... maybe tody will be going out (: at night met up with husaini after his done working, accompanied him survey for handphones .... heh ....thn off to meet azzira and my classmate over at pm (: till late again. as usual....andwill grab the photos soon from her.

on TUESDAY 13 Oct

Met up with husaini . accompanied again ... bought new handphone. uhhuh, and he was inda rushed to work . so we fast game fast game pey, haha. makan at burger king thn took cab stopped over at azzira house. he off to werk wheres mie off to azzira hommie (: and yea. lepak over at dann place till late (:

On wednesday. 14 oct

fareena (: bbg came over to jurong. haha. end to end siah ! pasir ris to jrg oi . kay kay. met up with us. makan at cavana thn bbg at zee off to bishan idk do what wheres mie and husaini lyke pffft. planless again. yesh ! again. the plan corrupt. again to night safari movie and bowling all cancelllllll uhs !!!! pffft !Bingi sak. enf up fed up sendiri i and husaini stayed over at pm till zee cam. pfft taq tentu arah siah kiter. tqpe2. as long as i had fun with him. im okeh with it (: yeah ! but in the end . really suck us alot . amn it. we almost go on our own ways . really fuck shit kans. we fight and quarrel like hell. madness gyler perrh kiter. grrrr.... thn after awhile we're okeh. mood swing siah dora... and yea.. he stayed with mie. oh my the longest tyme ever. we met up almost everyday, spent the night off and all (: this is what i call love (: haha . & yknow what. he very the bushuk. haha. ssshsss !

2009-10-16T15:31:00.006+08:00

Sunday Outing
11 October 2009 to vivo...
accompany husaini . done a lil shopping here and there. got myself a bangle and as well earrings from river island.
same goes to husaini, bought shoes and aww, too bad, theres no size for the blue T over at Zara. hehe.... lovely day indeed...

2009-10-16T15:03:00.023+08:00

....LAST SATURDAY PHOTOS....

10 Oct 2009

my HUNKS

fiq,ferd,akhbar,wan,husaini,barney,hanafie,hilmi,sham

my BITCHES

Fareena & azzirah (:

sorry for not uploading pictures in time ... from town off to sheesha (: theres more up there. just let the picturs do the talks aye (:

2009-10-09T03:14:00.003+08:00

Current mood : FUCKING PISSED OFF ! & SAD !

Current Song : Suicide by Leona Lewis ft Rihanna (REPEAT & REPEAT ALL OVER AGAIN)

( listen listen, very meaningful lyrics )

Fucking Pissed off ... whye ? because ...... here the story goes ... -__-

he said that i went to msia without telling him which i dunt . and he said not to lie cause the beeping of my cell phone he called was diff, and fuckingly ddnt trust mie . sial ! i was snoring at home siah !! grrrr ! and again he thinks im having fun cause i ddnt text him .. ohh hello, im sleeping okeh ! ):

I wish I could see through yr eyes so I wud knw what you lyke to see. I wish I knew ur wishes, so I cud giv u evertin u wan. I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do n together we could make them come true. I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world. And lastly, I wish I were a cell in ur blood, so I wud b sure I was somewhere in yr heart.When im low with nowhere to go i always remember this, when i open myy eyes, my heart, my spirit, myself, there i will find the stranger called hope. i guess he love seeing mie with other guys instead thn him himself. really, i cant stand the way when you said

*go ahead wit tt sum1 wen im here needin u most,as long as ure hapy wit tt guy*

grrr. sape taq fed up. pfft, wheres i dunt do sucha thang lyke tt, pfft! ive recently lost my hp, and gt back and yes, i did text my friends and stuff, and i guess his fucking pissed off wen i text sumone wen we're otp. grr. feels lyke not using it AGAIN AND WILL STOP MSGING PPL! easily said, had enough off it, and yup, i will stop using hp . senangkan, taq yah text sape2. bagos ! grrrr ! Just bcause something good ends doesnt mean something better won't begin. . PLEASE UH...make it right uh. da tawu aku ny sensetive, still have the guts to say tt ): i was keeping quiet all the way cause you said *go ahead with that someone* perangai taq perlu sak ! you said it wrong and it deserve my quiet-ness !arrrgh !. Maybe the reason why I havent found who Ive been searching for is because I know that Ive already found him. Itx just up to him to say whether I am who he has been waiting for.. all this while i just need him by my sight. and thats it. which is you ahmad husaini ! i guess he dunt want this wish to happen, and i guess i should have to move on instead ): wish mie luck husaini, wish mie luck kays ! ): badly hurt...

husaini, ddnt you realize this, whenever we talked on the phone it turn out to be lyke an angry lion and tiger fighting over a *meat* haha what ? and when it comes to meet up, everything was lyke a fairy.... cherish every moments and spend tyme lyke nobody business..... heaven sak ! seriusly, i hate talking otf, that is whye i love to hung up whenvr it turn out so bad ): im sorry... pffft ):

met up with zee just now. was a blast one, she accompanied mie to gek poh and off to jrg west park (: very sweet of her (: and yes, met up with that comel (cat)! haha. adorable. i call that cat (comel). seriusly, mate dier bulat skaly. very fluffy pulak tuu (: haha. happy dpt jumper si comel tuu (: . and now zee in love too with that adorable cat. hahahaha ! =P

2009-10-07T02:03:00.004+08:00

To dream a dream is to awaken my

inner self.
myy wants,
my desires,
my passions r given lyfe.

Time is nothing. but to mie tyme is something that ill treasure much...The desire to love is everythin.If I had just one night to live, I live it in your arms, for u to hold all my

joy,
happiness
and desires

that able to support on.I may nevr get to hold you so tight, I may never get to kiss you gdnight, I may never look deep in ur eyes or so it seems, but, love , a girl can dream and imagine .... Sumtymes I feel so afraid tt everythin Im dreamin of, might nvr come true. But lately, my fears have been abated . idk whye. seems weird .... The thought of being with you tomorrow gives me the strength to go on today. but seems to change lately. nvm. lyke what ive siad, do your part as long as ure happy there. im so called the *used someone* surround you and in within you. have mie wherenvr youre down or in need, but let it go wen ure having so much happy tymes out there.. itx okeh, itx alright . im used to all this kind of shit thing (:
Itx probably safe to say ive tried everything. If lie is what he really wants, and hes not man enough to tell mie why or get it done himself, itx seriously tyme to take matters into my own hands. Since he doesnt seem to be as emotional mature as i may have thought he was, i need to be prepared for the possibility of a nasty process. i jusst need to Spend a few minutes at the end of my days to journal/blogs. Lay my thoughts and feelins to rest b4 hittin the pillow and my overall health and wellness arrgh ! for sure it will benefit.

and ohh hey GF'S wanna go camping or hiking at pulau ubin someday? ahaha. i was browsing tru about girls teenage life magazines, and they were lyke talking about a topic called
*hiking or camping*
a girl should and experience the lyfe tyme of it. kinda amazing. since im not used to hiking or even camping at PULAU UBIN ! (SCARY)
the ways we can get relief and stuff. so just hold on to this plan. keep updating about plans. so bored ! ):

NEVERMIND,

Just always remember that even when we are apart I will be

missing you!

& BTW, had fun with dann, hilmi,zee,mus,nazif and geng over at pm. even just for awhile. really a blast one. thanx for comforting mie and as well make mie happy as usual (:

2009-10-06T11:11:00.002+08:00

recently, ive close down . i meant, delete away my blogshop cause all stuff seems to be cleared. glad to see that happen , all my stuff *laku* hahaha okeh shsss... ill be doing that again soon when i dont need the stuff i wanted too. be ready girls. only some ive picked . random ones . the ones that can really afford (: haha ! so yea. somehow my blogshop will be a private one lyke before (: and i knew the ones i picked will buy. hahaha . bad ehh dora.(: but hey, still in good condition okeh. sorry sikit uh ! taqmain koyak2 punya tauu =P

and also.... not forgetting .
ive renew my blog photo album . lyke at last ! cause lately my blog photo album was in a disaster. all mixed up andyaaa, looks ugly ! so now. new one. look out for the URL over at my link site aye (: ohh i soo love to take nature pictures alone haha. ohh i soo love my canon 500D . haha. showing off *kening naek2* hahaha (:

and will be back to parades. i mean, trainings for chingays,training for countdown 2010 and so do all dance trainings. yea. fit to fit again !? haha. and at last N paper will be over. for sure trainings here and there would be lyke. OH MY FUCKING SHIT ASS ! pffft !
and also after IM FIT lyke before again.... back to sentosa (:
haha. ohhh, i miss the beaches . and also to hamdan and geng, bringing mie over to negeri sembilan for tanning . and gosh. the beach there lyke awesome. but if itx too hawt, it really can burnt my skin into black instead of tanned. stupit one ! and if theres possible ways we always go to wet world or sunway lagoon (: haha . this is what lyfe i had before with em . hope we can make it again for now (: not a word saying * no *.
i need to clear off all dead skins for sure. haha.. seriusly itx been long since i step down to beaches . my last was on july . and thats where i start to work and aint have tyme for beaches ! argh ! someone , bring mie there pleaseeeeee ):

sorry for now, i gtg. gonna get ready for my maths paper 1 later (: . wish mie a best of luck ! argggh! will post again soon (:

2009-10-05T16:18:00.004+08:00

Current mode : moody/sad/pissed off/angry ):

listening to : Kisah Cintaku & Suaraku berharap

( listen to that song ) (keep repeating) Lovely (:

Doing what : obviously Updating Blog

(RANDOM, RANDOM,RANDOM)

whats with the current mode i have .. whye ? cause of that freaking freak shit ass science N-level paper. you making mie grrrr ! * i cried and cried looking at the questions siah, seriously, d topic aint what i studied for ): pffft ! in the end tears roll down lyke again after they collected my paper ): well, nvm. itx over... ): and at last . science paper done so do my business (: pheeew ! and yeps, husaini did called mie up wen im busy-ly studying for my business subs just now, aww, i was lyke yay-ness again when he called mie up, he gave mie a big smile with his *idk whats wrong with his hearing ? pekak or what* ! hahas. shsss !

(tmr maths paper 1 . standby dora, standby ... studyyyyyyy!)

okeh im done talking about papers.

this week I will cry lyke never after, but the week after my laughter will be heard lyke nvr before. Laughter is the one true thing everyone will always need. haha especially in mie. joy, happiness will always b the part in mie (: no matter how bad my lyfe would be, as long as my friends i cared most will always be there smiling (:

and do you think karma occurs everytyme when stress strikes ? hmmm... yeps..Every moment without you, is a moment of tyme lost.Tyme, ain't nothin, but tyme. Itx a verse with no rhyme, and it all comes down to you.In tyme all tings grow old n weak, but my love for you only grows strong and better with every second of every day.And if your feeling scared remember the tymes we've had. Yknw it meant everything to me (: Time can never be kept locked up, but memories can . this is what we had lately. cherish the moment even in small conversation and met up..Time is a gift and only you can decide what you do with it . but im scared, you dunt trustmie in things i do/done in whatever i feels happy for myself and day by day too you said tt and make mie nottrust in you as well. how i wish we both could understnd the situation and trust each other nomatter what ...

To azzira,wardah,ain,mairah,fatihah,nadia,hazrina,ashraf,xiuling,husaini,fareena,fadly,rahman,syed,nabil,

hamdan,farrell,nita,shawn,bobby,serah,anna,khairul,faizal,akin,kidd, hilmi,nazif

& to all my dearest closest friends (:

May your friends be as many as the promises that you keep.A true friend will not fail you wen u need a friend the most.Ive been searchin fr tt someone, to show me the way, to take my hand and tell me that everything will be okay Ive been searchin fr tt someone, n now I know itx true, Ive found tt special someone, ive found that someone in you.I cannot say good-bye to those whom I hav grown to love, fr the memories we have made will last a lyfetime and never know a good-bye.You can only be a true friend when you learn that friends are people and people have faults. friends will exists in fights and fights will exist in friends. thats what freiendship goes by day by day ... but will get to the top the have the happy moments for each others (: Friendship is not just somethin you can get anywhere, itX earned so it shouldnt be taken for granted. It should be treasured. YKNOW WHYE I TEND TO LET IT OUT LYKE *AT LAST* HAHA. simple.

cause we seems to not cared for each other lately.... you do your part and i do mynd. thats arent friends to be. even we've just known for four years doesnt mean we just let it go off lyke tt easily. aint not. i tresured all, but do you ? seems not right ....... talk behind our backs doesnt make the world seems right and ppl were lyke bow-ing on you for great deeds. not at all ! think twice.... have we evr said bad about you ? nah. itx not in my lyfe anymore, cause i know it will somehow hurt tt person and even to ourself and in the end everything ruins. tresure this friendship will you guys ?? i just miss the old tymes we had lately ! ):

sorry , i was kinda down lately. kinda emotional at the moments when im starting to browse tru my photo album tt i kept in my room. looking tru and it was really agreat moments ...

awwwww.... haha. okeh thats it. im down . im relieve now. gosh ! blog really heals mie (: the moments i can share with . with and without hatred (:

2009-10-05T02:36:00.003+08:00

well, basically had fun guink out with wawa, irfan, nal, fadly and geng. went to town slacked and done some shopping. after that off to arab str for sheesha ... aint wanna talked much here. haa. just a slight info will do. and ohh after that met up with husaini.. heh. sorry if im late or what. took cab and was in the rushed . seriusly i miss hym alot haha. ! and yea as usual had a splendid tyme with him i guess . and i was kinda * not me myself mode * at tht moment of tyme idk whye -_-
home early in the morning again... and yesh, my dad *gegar* mie... pfft ! he knocked my room door just to get up early at help mummy out cooked something cause we're having an open house. ahaa. was awesome ! really, till i get tired and off to sleep from 7 pm till 12am . haha. i woke up and everything was in the messed.. so i helped mum to clear everything off. pretty tired tho i was asleep (photos not yet upload , all pics were taken by my bro's cam) ... haha. and yep. husaini called mie hommie lyke at around 1am plus. haha. i was lyke, who the hell is calling late night. so , picked up the phone and heard his voice i was lyke*uhh! at last he called! yay-ness* haha. thn we talked over till 230am ? and he asked mie to meet. so yea, first i reject , thn since we both miss each other so yea. meet hym again (: aww, i just love him so much! hahah. ohh ohh ! shsss...rindu sgt sgt luh kans (: and again everything goes well, thats what i like most (:

and on sat, yesterday, had a job interview over at sentosa (: pretty cool. and tiring. cause i went off to study and off to interview lyke wth ! last minute peyy call. mintak kene taplek same dora uh tu orang ! buat org mengamok kejab jek taww. hahaha ! nvm. work nye psal. anything will do (: gosh. still must go for 2nd interview -_- aiyaaaaaaa !
caplek yknow. okeh random !
haha. klah klah. gtg. sleepy just reached home seyy... will be having my exams later on. need a gdnitght rest. night night you guys (:

and not forgetting !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BBY GERL AZZIRA. MAY ALL YOUR WISH COME TRUE LOVELY !

HEH. IM SO SORRY , I TOTALLY FRGT WEN MEETING YOU UP JUST NOW. NO PRESENT AND IT WAS EXACT 12 AM WEN WE CAME ACROSS TO MEET EACH OTHER JUST NOW. NO PRESENT . SOON KAY BBY GERL ! HAVE A GREAT DAY DARLA (: AND YESH, GD LUCK FOR EXAMS LATER ON (: